Nama om Visnu Padaya Krishna Prestaya Bhutale
Srimate Jayapataka Swamin iti namine
Namah Acharya padaya Nitai kripa pradayine
Gaura Katha dhama daya nagara grama tharine
Nama om Visnu Padaya Krishna Prestaya Bhutale
Srimate Bhaktivedanta Swamin iti namine
namaste saraswati deve Gaura vani pracharine
nirvisesa sunya vadi paschatya desa tarine
Jaya sri Krishna Chaitanya
prabhu Nityananda
sri Advaita Gadadhara
Srivasadi Gaura Bhakta vrinda
Mukham Kariti vachalam
pangum langhayate girim
yat kripa tam aham vande sri gurum dina tarinam
paramananda madhavam sri chaitanyam isvaram
Hari Om Tat Sat:
My Dear Srila Guru Maharaja, please accept my humble obeisances with deepest gratitude.
All glories to your auspicious appearance day.
Firstly I fall at your Lotus feet and beg Your Divine Grace for forgiveness for all the offences that I and Maalya have committed and also not being able to do service meeting your expectations.
Guru Maharaja, I am sure Your Divine Grace know what is my current situation, but I just would like to bring to your notice again... My Sadhana (be it quality of chanting, reading Srila Prabhupadas books, listening to lectures, doing deity service etc) has gone down, because of that my preaching quality is very very low, my dealings with vaishnavas are very offensive, my dealings with non vaishnavas are also not friendly, my dealings with my family members are not so loving. This is all because of my fallen down condition and not being very serious on the instructions of my Siksha gurus ,Your Holiness and Srila Prabhupadas.
And all these are natural manifestaions of me as that is my original nature, As Srila Krishna Dasa Kaviraja writes in Chaitanya Charitamrta Adi Leela 5.205:
jagāi mādhāi haite muñi se pāpiṣṭha
purīṣera kīṭa haite muñi se laghiṣṭha
I am actually worse than this and there is no comparision to this fallen and useless soul, but actually I feel and think that I am better than everyone. so naturally at every step I commit offences and sins.
My path is very difficult. I am blind, and my feet are slipping again and again as mentioned in the below verse. Therefore I beg Your Divine Grace for mercy as my support.
durgame pathi me ‘ndhasya
skhalat-pāda-gater muhuḥ
sva-kṛpā-yaṣṭi-dānena
santaḥ (Sri Guru ) santv avalambanam
So, my only shelter is the CAUSELESS MERCY of YOUR LOTUS FEET and no other option, as we sing in Sri Guruvandana...
guru-mukha-padma-vākya, cittete koribo aikya, ār nā koriho mane āśā
śrī-guru-caraṇe rati, ei se uttama-gati, je prasāde pūre sarva āśā
and śrī-guru karuṇā-sindhu (Ooo my spiritual Master You are an Ocean of Mercy)...
... hā hā prabhu koro doyā, deho more pada-chāyā (O Master! Please Be merciful unto me. Give me the shade of Your Lotus Feet).
I beg You my Dear Guru Maharaj, please give this most fallen soul a shelter at Your lotus feet.
Please show your mercy upon me so I can develop unflinching faith in the Krishna, Gauranga and Yourself as stated in the verse,
Yasya deve para bhakti yatha deve tatha gurau
Yasya ete kathotha hi artha prakasyanta mahatmanah.
As Srila Prabhupada mentions that "all your problems will be cleared by just one kick of mine... ", So I am waiting for the day when I can surrender unto Your Lotus eternally.
Please give me Your service as a BAIT by which I can always be hooked at your lotus feet.
If you wish I beg You to please empower me to preach pure Krishna and Gauranga Consciousness to this paschyatya desa, nirvisesa and sunyavadi people and make them sincere preachers in the same.
I am struggling to preach properly in Dartford, Please bless families (Rupali Mataji & Santosh Prabhu, Ramesh prabhu and Swapna Mataji, Subarna Mataji & gaurish Prabhu, Rahul Prabhu & Gauri Mataji, Mahesh Prabhu & Priti Mataji, Bala Prabhu & Bhuvana Mataji, Anil Prabhu & Swetha Mataji) and individuals (Sameer prabhu, Brinda Mataji, Hima Bindu Mataji, Ajay Prabhu) so that they become serious in krishna Consciousness and start chanting, soon reach 16 rounds (on daily basis), studying Srila Prabhupada books. By the end of BV I want all of them to sincerely engage in BV services by expanding to minimum 8 new BVs, I am sure this can happen by your mercy and blessings.
I was also thinking to introduce Krishna Consciousness to my family and people of my village and make them ideal organic farming devotee villages , please shower Your Blessings Dear Guru Maharaja so that I can start that this year.
I beg you to please give me and Maalya Initiation as soon as possible my dear Spiritual Father.
Maalya is now pregnant with another baby, she is now in 6th month, please shower your causeless mercy and blessings upon both Maalya and baby. Also please bless us with an empowered devotee preacher
I am currently struggling to get a Job and also trying to setup some businesses, please bless me so that my these endeavors will be successfull soon, by which I should be to provide atleast some assistance to the devotees
I beg to please give me a Formula to make any place complete and pure Krishna Consciousness within three years with minimum 108 empowered prechers who can implement the same in different places.
Also please bless me so that I can Eastablish an ideal, united, freindly, jouful and empowered krishna Conscious community with hundres and thousands of families from different ethicities, cultures, colours and creed. Which would be a role model community for devotees across the world.
I beg You please bless me with vaishnava qualities and not let me fall down.
I havnet given anything tangible till now Guru Maharaja, but I want to give something that pleases by Your next vyasapuja and that is only possible by Your causeless mercy and blessings. Please bless us Guru Maharaja.
Your insignficant servants,
Rajendhar Nagulapally
Maalya Reddy Nagulapally.