My Dearest Spiritual Father,
Please accept my humble obeisances. All glories to Śrī Gaura Sundar, All glories to Śrīla Prabhupada. All glories to your auspicious appearance day.
I feel so unqualified to even write this homage, but I want to express my heart to you. I feel I owe you so much, this is the least I can do. I am so grateful to Kṛṣṇa that he gave us you, I am so thankful that I can even see your glories and wonderful achievements and mercy you shower upon everyone that even thinks about you, let alone your disciples. Thank you so much for accepting me as your spiritual daughter, those words you sent to me by email was the most precious and nectar to my ears, they melted my heart. I am so insignificant in comparison to the vast number of devotees that shower their love upon you, yet you chose to reply to my emails and save me from my troubles even during your stay at hospital.
There are no words I can say that can describe your determination to follow your guru's instruction so perfectly. In spite of your health not being the best, you still never give up and continue to initiate and encourage and motivate so many of us fallen souls. Your love for Kṛṣṇa is so attractive to see, tears flow down your eyes in separation from Gaurāṅga. These things are too much for me to even fathom. You are so compassionate, loving, full of life, so personal in dealings with devotees, every so eager to engage people in Kṛṣṇa consciousness -> who wouldn’t want to be your disciple?
How unfortunate I am to not be qualified to be initiated by you at this moment, but I have faith that one day I will have no obstacles on my path and I can run to my spiritual father -> to help me, to please allow me to serve you, to please save me from this material world, to please show me how to love Kṛṣṇa, to please take me to Kṛṣṇa.
I do not deserve you, but yet I am fortunate to have you as my spiritual father. I am longing to see you and hope I will have enough control on myself to pay my obeisances and express my love for you through my eyes -> as my words may not come out right at that time.
I have never met you in person, I have never spoken to you but I want to surrender at your lotus feet. Something tells me I have known you for eternity. My eyes have never seen Kṛṣṇa, for me you are Kṛṣṇa, if he was present among us, he would behave just like you.
Guru Mahārāja you are my saviour, you are my only hope. I am trying to be a good devotee and to be known as your spiritual daughter, but I have no qualities like yours, please teach this unfortunate insignificant daughter, and I promise I will do my best. Please do not leave me behind
Guru Mahārāja, please do not give up on me Guru Mahārāja, I do not want to live in this material world without your mercy.
May Lord Narasimhadeva cure you form all ailments and we see you dancing and singing and playing those huge kartals for many many years to come.
Your unqualified spiritual daughter,
Sangeetha
