My dear guru Mahārāja,
nama oṁ viṣṇu-pādāya kṛṣṇa-preṣṭhāya bhū-tale śrīmate jayapatākā-svāmin iti nāmine
namo ācāryapādāya nitāi-kṛpa-pradāyine gaura-kathā dhāma dāya nagara-grāma tāriṇe
nama oṁ viṣṇu-pādāya kṛṣṇa-preṣṭhāya bhū-tale śrīmate bhaktivedānta-svāmin iti nāmine
namas te sārasvate deve gaura-vāṇī-pracāriṇe nirviśeṣa-śūnyavādi-pāścātya-deśa-tāriṇe
Please accept my humble obeisances unto your lotus feet. I pray to Śrī Śrī Rādhā Mādhava and asta sakhis, Śrī Śrī Panchtatva and Lord Śrī Narasimhadeva to protect you from bodily ailments and pain and bless you with best of your health. I pray to Lord Gaurāṅgaa to provide you with strength and power so as to receive your constant association and limitless mercy.
I don’t know Guru Mahārāja what to write in your glorification as I am extremely incapable and foolish to understand or glorify your divine grace. As its inconceivable for me to understand Lord kṛṣṇa and his adhyatmika jagad and his lilas similarly for me its too difficult to learn you and your divine lilas. Again you proved that by determination and surrendering to your guru, one can defeat death of this material body. All glories to you and all glories to Śrīla Prabhupāda. We fortunate again to have your more association. Each passing day I realize more of your gratefulness on me. Thank you Gurudeva for blessing me with Kṛṣṇa consciousness. Thank you for your causeless mercy and considering such insignificant soul as your daughter. From the day i saw you,your constant belief in Śrīla Prabhupāda and your to accomplish his mission has always been inspiring and igniting me so even I desire to have the same spirit to serve you guru Mahārāja. Please I beg down for your kind mercy.
Despite of my trying to preach other new people I am unable to make them Kṛṣṇa conscious. Maybe my efforts are less or my desire is weak to serve you gurudev. I need your constant motivation and devotees association which I miss a lot because of my commuting for job. I need to confess this that sometime my faith in Kṛṣṇa dwindles due to some personal reasons, but you are my only constant source of hope guru Mahārāja. Though I have met you three times personally (that too in group) but still feels connected to you. You do reciprocate sometimes, I feel. Please be with me everytime and all the time. Please bless me your divine grace so I can get married soon to a good devotee and can carry out Kṛṣṇa bhakti together till the end of material body. Also bless my parents so they can also take initiation from you.
We have started kids program in Baroda-Kṛṣṇa club under the guidance of His Grace Mantresh Gaurānga prabhuji and Her Grace Nityayogini Mataji. We are even conducting kirtan sessions in a school where students of std 2 to 8 are participating. Hopefully we may encourage their parents to connect with congregation by all your mercy and Kṛṣṇa’s desire.
Forgive me Guru Mahārāja for my infinite mistakes I do in my sadhana, my inability in preaching and many many things. Just by your grace I can improve on it and find a way to go back to godhead. Bless me always trying to be in your service.
Your insignificant daughter,
Śaśimukhi Mādhavī devī dāsī
Baroda Bhakti-vṛkṣa