Hare Kṛṣṇa Guru Mahārājā,
Please accept my humble obeisances!
Guru Mahārājā, I am so so fortunate and lucky to have you as my spiritual master and living example in front of my eyes. Thank you very much. I am so happy that your surgery was a success.
All the old memories of you are so fresh in my mind. The time when I used to make some dokla prasad for you, you asking about its ingredients and so on... I relish those interactions very dearly.
We know you are glorious but of late, your glory became a realization, and appreciation of your wonderful qualities increased so much in my life.
Guru Mahārājā, time is inevitable and this body is getting old. And with it comes many problems. Recently, I have been having serious Vertigo problems. Everything around me seems to move around. I feel unstable. Can’t stand or walk in that condition. At times, headache and so many other ailments come. And as I go through this, though I do my daily chanting, worship of deities and other services as much as I can, it's not easy. I do tend to give excuse on the pretext of my health and reduce the intensity of my devotional services.
But as I go through this health condition, I think of how glorious you are. What a great master Kṛṣṇa and Śrīla Prabhupāda have given in front of me. Your determination is matchless. What an example you are. Could we ever go through any health condition more difficult than what you are going through? But despite all that, you seem to be stronger than ever before with least bodily consciousness. You don’t really seem to think or act on the bodily platform of existence at all….you are truly my SPIRITUAL MASTER…. Teaching me by example how to continue one’s devotional service to the Lord irrespective of our bodily situations. Guru Mahārājā, I am so happy and fortunate to have you as my spiritual master.
Gurudeva, I remember once how you did Narasiṁha arati - your health was not at all cooperating...you could not lift your arms, but still you did arati. That image of yours is so fixated in my mind that irrespective of how my health is, thinking of you, I do my puja to Lord Jagannātha, Baladeva, and Shubadra Devi.
Guru Mahārājā, I have this ardent desire to see you again in Coimbatore and offer some kind of personal service to you. Want to cook something for you, speak with you and so on. Hope that happens.
I, along with all my family members sincerely desire and pray for your long and healthy life. May you live many many more years filled with services to Śrīla Prabhupāda and ISKCON.
Your servants,
Shyamanandi gopi devī dāsī(Diksa) &
Neelkantan,
Coimbatore, India