Dearest Gurumaharaj,
Please accept my most respectful obeisances.
All glories to you Gurumaharaj.
All glories to Srila Prabhupad.
All glories to Sri Gauranga.
I dont know how to start gurumaharaj. I am eternally indebted to your causeless mercy for all the mercy you had showered on me and still showering on me. Even though i was not at all eligible for taking initiation you were very merciful to accept me as your spiritual daughter on March 21st 2008 in Mayapur on Gaur purnima.
Gurumaharaj, I am noone to glorify you but with the little knowledge I have. Oh Gurumaharaj, we learn so much from you. You preach by example and the compassionate person you are to all the souls without any exception. I get so amazed on how you ensure everyone is keeping well when gurumaharaj you are going through so much pain. I was associating with Bangalore devotees from 2005 - 2008 and was staying with Anitha Mataji (HG Anindita Devi dasi - initiated by HG Ravindra Swarup Prabhu). She always inspired me and she is the one who taught me your guru mantra. She nurtured me by taking me for book distribution and all KC programs. I learnt from her that you get pleased when we bring new people to KC. She had taken me to mayapur for the nawamandal parikrama. I still remember and is very fresh in mind how every single day there used to be Q & A session with you gurumaharaj. I only wish if those days came back and if I could have served you nicely and with all my heart. I was taking everything for granted and krishna just kicked me out of devotee association. Now I value everything - Devotees, services everything and I learnt that to be engaged in Krishnas service is so priceless and not everyone gets that opportunity and is possible only by the causeless mercy of great gurus like yourself gurumaharaj. I beg at your lotus feet gurumaharaj to allow me to render service unto yourself, devotees, Krishna and Smt Radharani. I feel so far away from all this now.
Recently i had a dream where gurumaharaj you were wearing a turban and walking around Mayapur like old days and making sure everyone is happy in Mayapur. You were boarding a bus and i barged in. Even though gurumaharaj you actually did not have in mind to take me still you allowed me to come along. On the way we met HH Bhanu swami maharaj and reached one devotees house. They were serving you so nicely. And you were so merciful and gave me your cashew nut maha prasad. When i was in Bangalore, i used to get your darshan almost every single day in my dream. But these days i dont see any spiritual dreams at all but I get very rarely and feel soo happy to get your association in my dream but very rare.
I had lost my material father last year in June 21st and Gurumaharaj you were so merciful to write back to me instantly and asked me to do pinda in Gaya for my dad. I had tried to contact people there but couldn't do it till now. That's still pending and want to do before Jun 21st this year.
Now I am in Dubai and there are many wonderful devotees here but due to my circumstances I am not able to associate with devotees. I wanted to pray specifically for the below devotees gurumaharaj to bless them for they always help me remain in KC and stay connected with you.
Anitha Mataji (Aninditha Devi dasi) and Ratipriya Devi dasi [Both of them constantly give me association through whats app and helps me have faith in krishna]
HG Radhabhav prabhu [Prabhu had been soooo very merciful above words always and also sends me maha prasadam of great vaishnavas and prabhu got me your blessings gurumaharaj - on my photo when you came to shyamdesh last time]
Sunil prabhu and Sunaina Mataji [They stay close to my house here in Dubai and they had been so amazingly compassionate towards me through out. They are currently going through a terrible time materially and i seek your prayers for them on this auspicious day when you are even more merciful]
I pray sincerely from my heart to Krishna and his dear most Smt Radharani to protect you gurumaharaj and that you come back with full strength and dance during the kirtans and play the gigantic kartals. I don't want to loose you ever gurumaharaj. I feel so happy when i get a response to my email from you gurumaaraj. I feel you are there to protect me no matter what. My dearest most compassionate most merciful spiritual father my dear gurumaharaj, my most most most respectful obeisances unto your lotus feet again again and again.
In my office, i try to gift my colleagues Gita when they leave or if there is any occasion and I offer all those Gita distribution in your name Gurumaharaj. The ekadashi I am taking I am offering it to you guruaharaj and also to my dad. I feel gurumaharaj that there is no one to offer to my material dad I offer to both of you. I really miss him Gurumaharaj :(
Thats all what I am doing gurumaharaj :(
Your Spiritual Daughter,
Raṅgadevī Gopikā devī dāsī