Hare Kṛṣṇa Guru Mahārājā,
All glories to your auspicious Appearance Day,
I am feeling very jubilant and grateful to write this offering to you on the occasion of your 70th Vyāsa-pūjā celebration. I was remembering a verse from Caitanya Caritamṛta, Madhya lila, Chapter 7, verse 101, where it says, "Such an empowered person would request everyone and anyone — whomever he saw — to chant the holy name of Kṛṣṇa. In this way all the villagers would also become devotees of the Supreme Personality of Godhead." And in purport Śrīla Prabhupāda writes that In order to become an empowered preacher, one must be favoured by Lord Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu or His devotee, the spiritual master. Thus we can understand that you were the associate of Lord Caitanya. Now again you have appeared to deliver the fallen conditioned souls of towns and villages by blessing them with the pastimes and Dhams of Lord Caitanya.
By your causeless mercy, although not qualified, I got the opportunity to preach to the college boys of Mahisbathan area at Kolkata. In our first attempt in 1st semester we struggled to inspire few boys there. But within 4 months everyone left, except one. Again we started our 2nd batch there. In that 2nd batch, we introduced chanting to 4 boys. We called them 2-3 times to our centre at Chingrighata for youth camp. No one came. So I am going through a hopeless situation, not knowing how to touch their hearts. Please inspire me as well as them from within and reveal the joy of Kṛṣṇa Consciousness within their hearts.
In my personal life also I am very much victimized by the modes of passion and ignorance, specially the unconquerable lust. Not able to see the way out, except your prayers and blessings, as you are the representative of Śrī Śrī Rādhā Madan mohan ji, the Sambanda deity.
Because of your blessings my family condition is quite well as of now. It is easy to progress further in Bhakti. But my mind is hovering very much on the objects of sense gratification which are detrimental for Brahmachari ashram. The 3 gunas are making me dance like a puppet. I know that I am simply cheating myself. But I don't want to be a hypocrite anymore. Please shower your mercy upon me.
At last I pray for my parents, sister and relatives and to whom I am connected to, so that they can also get your mercy and blessings to develop their dormant love of Godhead.
Your insignificant servant of servant,
Virabhadra Sundara Dāsa (Dīkṣā),
ISKCON Kolkata Temple, India