Hare Krsna Guru Maharaj, Please accept my most respectful obeisances unto your divine and transcendental lotus feet.
Most beloved gurudev, I am the most insignificant and most fallen yet out of your most merciful and compassionate nature you have given me the oppurtunity to write for you. I am faulty and defected, hence I can never express properly how glorious you are. I am full of faults when it comes to thoughts, words and deeds. Yet like lotus grows in the mud, you have appeared in the material world and you have showered your causeless mercy on me by accepting me as your sheltered disciple.
I offer unto you this poem as an offering for your auspicious appearance day:
You held me through all the pain,Oh! gurudev you are my biggest gain.
I shake, i tremble, i fall down, but you stay as my strength crown.
I am superfallen and not worth it, Yet you are merciful and love me.
You accept me as i am, Though i am an undeserving lamb.
Everybody tells me i am wrong, But you accepted me all along.
People complain, criticize and break my heart, You love, you care and never let me fall apart.
I was sad, depressed and stressed, Then you came and made me blessed.
I am fallen and worthless, you give me causeless mercy nevertheless.
I am told i am bad a hundred times, You told me these are maya's tests in your words divine.
You are preparing me for the final test, You support me without any rest.
Challenges & obstacles throw me away, yet seeing you never give up makes easier my way.
I will always be the most undesired, Yet your blessings will never get me fired.
People will always look at me as the biggest problem, But krishna will accept me in an envelope when he sees you as the emblem.
You are kind and rare like a diamond, You are mine and i am yours forever.
I love you, you are my beloved divine, Our story will last forever and beyond time.
I have waited for you since a very long time, when i fell down in this material hell for my crimes.
My soul here is going through numerous birth, disease, old age & death, You appeared to parcel me back home back to godhead.
You came and you held my hand, Please never leave me at any bend.
I will never be able to serve you properly, Yet hold me tightly out of your causeless mercy.
Oh guru maharaj, Please, hold me tightly eternally out of your causeless mercy.
All glories to your auspicious appearence day!
Gurudev, you have accepted me as your sheltered disciple. I am trying to fulfill the requirements for initiation. I need your causeless mercy and blessings to do the same.
Your most fallen and menial servant, Kajal Srivastava (Sheltered disciple) Delhi, India