nama oṁ viṣṇu-pādāya kṛṣṇa-preṣṭhāya bhū-tale
śrīmate jayapatākā-svāmin iti nāmine
namo ācāryapādāya nitāi-kṛpa-pradāyine
gaura-kathā dhāma dāya nagara-grāma tāriṇe
oṁ ajñāna-timirāndhasya
jñānāñjana-śalākayā
cakṣur unmīlitaṁ yena
tasmai śrī-gurave namaḥ
My Dear Gurudeva,
Hare Krsna!
A million respectful humble prostrations to the dust of your lotus feet. Please accept them, out of your causeless mercy. All glories to Sri Gauranga. All glories to Srila Prabhupada. All glories to Your Holiness. All glories to all the vaisnavas.
My dear Gurudeva, all glories to your auspicious appearance day!
I am Susila Kamala devi dasi – the insignificant and unworthy disciple of your holy self. With your kind permission, I am under the loving care of the counsellor system of His Holiness Radhanatha Swami Maharaja, whom is my dear and pujya siksa Gurudeva. I am a congregational member attached to ISKCON Chennai.
My dear Gurudeva for days together I am preparing myself to write this Vyasa-puja offering letter to your holy self, but not able to understand how to express about your glorious personality. Being a very insignificant and fallen jiva, struggling with many anarthas and short comings, I do not at all have any qualification whatsoever to approach as exalted a personality as your holy self, with my this small Vyasa-puja offering. Your magnanimous personality is just cannot be comprehend with in my insignificant human capacity. At the same time, with your pure and unconditional love, you made me aware of one fact that, you are my dear, dear Gurudeva, with whom I can open up my heart, with my broken words. I kept praying to you, our dear Krsna and all guru-paramparā to bless me to write this homage as my loving offering of my love, respect and gratitude to you, my dear Gurudeva! Its only and only with your and Krsna’s causeless mercy that, I am trying to offer my heart’s feelings to you, on your auspicious Vyasa-puja celebration.
My dear Gurudeva, as you are kindly aware, a bona fide Guru is none other than the mercy-incarnation of Krsna Himself. You are that mercy-incarnation of Krsna for me… Whose heart is filled with pure love, compassion, care and genuine concern for me and all conditioned jivas of this world. Every day, in my prayer I remember that, you are my only saviour and because of whose causeless mercy alone I have been blessed with our dear Krsna’s this beautiful Krsna conscious samsara. You are one of the few rarest and greatest blessings of my life, my dear Gurudeva. Without your unconditional love and causeless mercy, there is no existence of mine at all.
I am actually not fit even for getting shelter at the dust of your lotus feet. It’s absolutely the love and compassion of your loving heart, because of whom I and Krsna Prabhu got your merciful protection in the form of diskha and Mandakini (your grand daughter) got your blessings, on that auspicious and very important day of our lives.
mūkaṁ karoti vācālaṁ
paṅguṁ laṅghayate girim
yat-kṛpā tam ahaṁ vande
śrī-guruṁ dīna-tāraṇam
I feel this verse being true in my life. I was a complete apanga and moodha too. My dear spiritual father, being a true "Deenavatsala", out of your loving causeless mercy alone, you ABUNDANTLY blessed this arrogant and unworthy fool, personally, in my initial days of Krishna conscious years and that rare treasure of your love and mercy gave the direction and meaning to my life for which I am completely indebted to you, my dear Gurudev. Your causeless loving mercy alone is my only hope, my dear Gurudev. With your blessings and mercy, this insignificant jeeva is hoping to continue in Krishna Consciousness by trying to serve your holy self, our dear Gauranga and His dear devotees, with in my insignificant capacity, for His pleasure. It’s because of your selfless love and sincere prayers alone, we are continuing in Krishna consciousness - the biggest and rarest blessing one can get in one’s life. All glories to our beloved Srila Prabhupada. All glories to your holy self and all our Guru brundas, for rescuing all fallen souls like me from the clutches of maya, by generously and widely distributing Krishna’s unconditional and unlimited love to all of us. You, my dear Gurudev, by sacrificing all your comforts, even in your current physical condition… you tirelessly travels and encourage and inspire all of us to take this rare blessing of Krishna consciousness seriously for the pleasure of our dear Srila Prabhupada and Krishna. You are truly the giver of our dear Nitai’s causeless mercy, my dear Gurudev. I offer my koti koti prostrated humble obeisances at your lotus feet.
My dear Gurudev, I and we are very happy and encouraged seeing your fast recovery. With our dear Krishna's inspiration and with your and our Guru parampara’s causeless mercy alone, I pray every day for your speedy recovery an chant one round on every Ekadasi for you, my dear Gurudev, to fulfil your heart's desire to serve our beloved Srila Prabhupada's mission by rendering more and more loving services to our dear Nitai and Gaura. Now, on the auspicious occasion of your appearance day, from the very depth of my heart, I sincerely pray to our beloved Radha and Krishna, Srila Prabhuapada and all the Guru parampara and all the vaishnavas to kindly give you Their merciful blessings in your mission to please our dear Srila Prabhupada and Sri Gauranga.
We are really very grateful to your holy self and our dedicated team for giving us the beautiful platform of ‘Lava Matra Sadhu Sanga’, through which we are blessed to get your sacred association everyday. We are so much touched and feel inspired seeing your enthusiasm to serve our beloved Srila Prabhupada and also, to bless us your divine vani. We are also very much grateful to all those sincere devotees, who upload small vedio clips of your lectures, question-answer sessions of your holy self, for our upliftment. Now because of all these we feel you are not at all away from us, rather out of your absolutely loving compassion and care, you very mercifully availing yourself very near to us, through your divine vani. JAI!! THANK YOU A MILLION, my dear Gurudev for all your such loving mercy and compassion on all of us!
My dear Gurudev, with your and Krishna’s causeless mercy, being in the association of sincere and loving devotees, we try to lead a Krishna Conscious life as a family by rendering various sevas and saadhana. With your blessings, Mandakini (9 years old) chants 4 rounds per day and sometimes chants extra rounds and prays for your speedy recovery. With your mercy, we three as a family are engaged in deity worship too at home. With Krishna’s mercy, my heart fills with so much of joy and enthusiasm for KC, while listening to your very much inspiring discourses. While listening to your energetic lectures, you always amaze me with your rock like Guru-nistha and dedication to our Srila Prabhupada’s this glorious movement. Your absolutely non-envious nature has touched my heart very deeply. Your humility and pure love and genuine care for all living entities is heart-melting…my dear compassionate spiritual father. Your deep love for our dear Krishna and fire like enthusiasm to engage everybody in His loving devotional service is extra-ordinary and very inspiring, my dear Gurudev. With your mercy alone, I feel like to develop all such beautiful vaishnava qualities in my tiny little heart too… though it’s like a dwarf dreaming to reach moon. My dear Gurudev, kneeling down in front of you, and extending my begging bowl, I humbly and helplessly beg you, my dear spiritual father at your lotus feet, to kindly bless me for the same please…..and thus, improve in my loving service to your holy self, our dear Radha and Krishna and Their dear devotees…for Their pleasure alone. Your merciful blessings alone can make it possible.
Gurudev, I earnestly desire to dedicate myself to you and serve you and your mission with so much of enthusiasm and dedication. However, I do not at all have any strength whatsoever of my own. Your mercy alone is the one and only hope for me. I exclusively depend upon your causeless mercy alone to fulfil my this earnest desire. Your mercy alone can do this miracle…my dear Gurudev.
My dear Gurudev, I sincerely beg you from the core of my heart, for your blessings in my begging bowl to bless me that, my love for you becomes really pure, unconditional, uninterrupted and limitless, and it keeps on ever-increasing, and my Guru-nistha and my commitment to your mission keeps on deepening. I sincerely beg you, my dear Gurudev, to bless this fallen conditioned soul to develop deep attachment for Divya Prema naam japa and a pure consciousness towards all devotees and all living entities without having any discrimination, enviousness and judging mentality......and I render pure, loving, unconditional, uninterrupted and limitless devotional services to your holy self, Srila Prabhupada, all the Guru parampara, all the vaishnavas and to our dear most Radha and Krishna, in the way it pleases All of You and PURELY for Their pleasure alone. Your merciful blessings alone can make this possible.
Thank you very much, my dear Gurudev, for patiently reading my this insignificant letter, sparing so much of your precious time and energy, out of your love only…for this fool. Thank you so much, my dear Gurudev.
HARE KRISHNA.
With my deep gratitude and a million humble prostrations unto the dust of your lotus feet,
Aspiring to be the servant of the servant of the servant……. of your holy self,
Your spiritual daughter,
Suseelaa Kamala Devi dasi