Gauranga !!! Nityananda !!!
মন্ত্রগুরু আর যত শিক্ষাগুরুগণ ।
তাঁহার চরণ আগে করিয়ে বন্দন ||
My Dearmost Spiritual father Srila Gurudev !
Please accept my most respectful obeisances !
All glories unto you ! All glories unto Srila Prabhupada !
Dear Gurudev,
You are the ocean of mercy. I do not have any qualification and most fallen soul. As I have heard from your glorious disciples that mercy is always flowing, but do we have enough capacity to receive that?. I don't know how to thank you enough. You have accepted me as your spiritual son, you have arranged so nice assocoation for me, my wife & son. Even when my wife went to visit hometown, Nadia you have mercifully arranged association of your glorious disciples. I can't comprehend how wonderfully you have arranged association while she was travelling in flight. Even after that I always find fault in others and forget to be grateful, I am such a rascal. I cannot speak words which is truth, nice to hear and which will benefit others. But I know these all are possible by your mercy. I am such irresponsible & lazy that I don't follow the instructions or make delay to obey it. But you and your disciples are tolerating me all the time. I have the desire to surrender 108% under your lotus feet, but I don't have any taste in chanting, having endless material desire and have no service attitude. Please bless me, please make me surrendered unto your lotus feet immediately. I want to be in use in your mission of sreading Krishna consciousness.
I have heard from scriptures that -
গুরু কৃষ্ণরূপ হন শাস্ত্রের প্রমাণে ।
গুরুরূপে কৃষ্ণ কৃপা করেন ভক্তগণে ॥
If you so desire, please give me this realization. Please give me the taste so that I can chant offencelessly. Please say the right words at right moment and in right attitude through me. I want to preach the message you Sri Sri Gaur Nitai, Right now I am engaged in taking Kids class and teaching mridanda although I have no qualification na dhave no knowledge.
Thank you for allowing me to be your son. Kindly forgive me for all my offences na dkeep me under the shelter of your lotus feet. I am sure that everything is possible by your mercy.
Your insignificant son,
Baladevanuja Krsna Das
Minneapolis