Please accept my humble obeisance unto your divine lotus feet. All glories to Jagatguru Srila Prabhupada. All glories to your Holiness.
Today is the very auspicious day of your divine appearance.
In the Bhagavatam, there are the prayers of great devotees where they prayed for sufferings and troubles so that they always can remember the lord. There is no doubt in their exalted spiritual position but for a tiny aspiring devotee like me when in spite of having all these favorable devotional facilities staying in material world it is difficult to do bhakti seriously then what will happen if I go out. Therefore, Dear Gurudev, I pray to you, please help me to be fixed in my spiritual vows. Please shower your mercy upon me so that I may never think of leaving this association what to speak of Bhakti. I don’t know when it will be possible to get out of this ocean of samsara but I just pray that please help me to get out of this ocean of anarthas. You know well what a big rascal I am, my mind is filled with stacks of material desires. Bhagavatam says that although it is condemned still such material desires can also be fulfilled by the mercy of lord. And here is my fear. Please never let them be fulfilled. I honestly confess today, I am unable to deal with these desires driven by the anarthas. Therefore I request you please take the charge of my mind and never allow these desires to be fructified rather please destroy them and replace with spiritual desires. Srila Prabhupada very often quoted the order of the spiritual master is the life and substance of the disciple. O my dear spiritual master please help me to take your orders as my life and substance. Please help me to serve your instructions wholeheartedly with body, mind, and speech. May I only use them in your service and not in my own self. I don’t know when I will get Prema, but I pray please help me to be fixed in my sadhana which is one of your orders. You have ordered us to help you in preaching. I want to dedicate my life to your mission but please help me to preach myself and protect me so that I never get deviated from this wonderful path of bhakti to which you have introduced me. And finally, as very selfishly I have mentioned in this offering to you only “I’. Please make me free from this conception of “aham mameti”. Let me not do what I like but what you like. Let me not go in my way but in your way.
Your servant
Marikkani
hare krishna