Dear Guru Maharaj ,
Please accept my humble obeisances unto your lotus feet,
All glories to Srila Prabhupada.
All glories unto you Guru Maharaj,
I am very insignificant to glorify you because you have unlimited qualities, but I am trying to write something in this special occasion of Vyas Puja.
You are Acharyapada who teaches by his own example, you are nitya siddha , pure devotee, you are beyond rules. but you always follow all the details of rules and regulation of sadhana bhakti even though you are physically challenged. You are practically showing “we are not this body”.
You are distributing the mercy of lord Nityananda to everyone without considering the qualification of the person, always desiring to deliver the world.
You are creating place of pilgrimage wherever you go, and distribute lord gauranga to everebody. You are delivering the both cities and villages.
When i first came to know about you, in my heart I accepted you my Spiritual Master, I never thought of choosing guru out of many others spiritual masters. When i first show you in Mayapur in your Vyas Puja 2011, i felt like wave of love for Krsna is flowing as you came out of lotus building and all devotees were chanting loudly “Gauranga, Gauranga...”. i could not stop crying..tears started to flow from my eyes and my voice got chocked up.
Just by your appearance, i was feeling separation from Lord Krsna and lord Gauranga.
I am very fallen and still anarthas are popping up because of past bad samskaras , but I can overcome these anarthas very soon by your mercy.
I want to follow your instruction strictly, as you told me to service in ISKCON Gangtok centre. By your mercy i have developed a desire to do preaching more and more, even though i am not qualified.
I feel pain, when some devotee say your disciples are “daal-bhat” devotees who are only concern in doing sadhana but not expert preachers and leaders. So I want to become expert preacher and leader and help you in some of your responsibilities. This can be possible only by your mercy Guru Maharaj. I want to become pure devotee very soon, so that I can inspire many souls to take shelter of Krsna.
Please forgive me Guru Maharaj that I couldn’t follow your instructions properly, because of my negligence. But this time I will be very serious and maintain my sadhana strong. And I will always pray to Lord Narsingha Dev for your protection and good health. so that you deliver the whole world.
Your fallen unqualified disciple
Subandhu Krsna Das.
ISKCON Gangtok, Sikkim.