21.2.2020 near the templ of Sri Sri Nitai Navadvipacandra Mandir ( Maha Siva Ratri )
Offering for Vyasa Puja 2020
Nama om visnu-padaya
Krsna-presthaya bhu-tale
Srimate Jayapataka-
Svamin iti namine
Nama acaryapadaya
Nitai-krpa-pradayine
Gaura-katha-dhama-daya
Nagara-grama-tarine
Dear Gurumahara YH Jayapataka Swami,
Today On Maha Siva Ratri I try to write offering for You for the first time and I take this oportunity as big mercy from Lord Siva whom I offer my respectful obeisances and who allowed me to see the light from ignorance and false ego. I come forward to You in position of fool as Srila Prabhupada explained in His books and I beg for blessing for next spiritual progress on the way to Sri Krishna and His Goloka Vrindavan and I would like to share and give this blessing to others and give them oportunity to get rid of their suffering in this material prison and I wish as much as possible to please You by this service. Every day I can realize Your constant presence and proximity and still go deeper in our relationship trough my humble service to You though I am individually conditioned , not qualified , fallen, slight and insignificant. As it is mentioned in the vers of Bhagavadgíta 4.34 , I try to surrender to You in every moment of existence and I learn to wave with wings under Your guidance in the mood of separation and also to learn to become a servant of the servnat of the servant ….
I remember Srila Prabhupad´s words that it is not important to have physical presence of the spiritual master and Sri Krishna because He is present in Hare Krishna Mahamantra and His directions. I balance my realationship to You in every step of my life like a tightrope walker balance on his rope and it is not easy with my impurities in the heart. One of the czech deciple of Srila Prabhuad HG Jay Gurudev prabhu mentioned Your quote during Sunday lecture from Chaitanja Caritamrita that we should cry for Krishna and if we dont cry for Krishna we should cry for not crying for Krishna etc….This instruction will be difficult to follow and realize but not impossible with Your mercy. Today during morning program in front of Nitai Navadvipacandra I realize that first more impornant is crying for the spiritual master and than we can await some realization with Lord Krishna. Every day I can go deeper in our relationship and with guruparampara by reading and studying Srila Prabhupads books and by following this spiritual process which Srila Prabhupada firmly provided as Acarya for this Golden age because of His mercy . And I try to establish this relationship in my heart and believe that in the moment of death I will fully surrender to You and I will be ready to follow You to the spiritual World. I hope that by Your mercy the Absolute truth will be revealed to me as much as Sri Krishna will want to be revealed.
In the end I would like to thank You with my sincerity and deference for Your personal example and inspiration in preaching Krishna consciousness , chanting Mahá mantra Hare Krishna and reading Srila Prabhupad´s books in every town and village in the world. Thank You for giving me mercy of pure devotee and acceptance at Your lotus feet as Your deciple in 2017 during Gaurapurnima in Sridham Mayapur and for giving me spiritual name Phalguna Gaura das.
Your eternal debtor who try to pay dept to You.
Your eternal servant Phalguna Gaura das.
Translated by Purnahuti devi dasi – wife