Dearest guru maharaja,
Please accept my humble obeisances at your lotus feet. I have committed a million sins, I m not worthy to be even your disciple. I have been very unhappy and miserable since lately, I wanted to write to you regarding the same, but I think my sufferings are nothing compared to what you are going through for us. Gurudev, without you our lives are worthless in this material world. I cannot even contemplate to survive without you. I will pray to Lord Jagannath, the Lord of this universe to keep you healthy always and your surgery be a success. I have been unable to follow ur instructions. I have fallen a lot, please guide me and help me to come back to the right path. Without you, even taking one breath is impossible. Please bless me and my family always. Thanking you forever.
All glories to SRILA Prabhupada and you, my gurumaharaja.
Forever your servant,
Apurva Gandharvika Devi Dasi