Hare krsna Beloved Gurudeva,
Please accept my respectful obeisances at your lotus feet.
All glories to srila prabhupada!!
All glories to you!
Gurudeva,
I feel so fortunate to have you as my spiritual father. You are ocean of unlimited mercy. You can only deliver the most most most fallen soul like me. Otherwise I am so fallen and unfortunate. But I am so thankful to krsna for giving me shelter of you as a blessings and rest is very insignificant in front of it. You are jewel of Nitai Karuna. You are affectionate to everyone. You live to fullfill the words of your spiritual master and grant us whole parampara Kripa...Gurudeva, no matter how much bodily pain you are going with, you never let even a day go without speaking Lord Chaitanya Katha. Your constant association through online class is transforming and purifying. Your absorption in the pastimes can only melt my heart like stone, which is black like coal with anarthas.
Gurudeva, I am such a fallen and unworthy that even my family members don't like me. My biological father has betrayed me, my siblings hate me. Just by having your shelter Gurudeva gives me hope and strength to live and keep going in my devotional services. You are giving so much love and care through many devotees that I am indebted to you life after life. I wasn't clear much with love, care and reciprocation terms but as the years are passing under your shelter, I can feel these three by heart. Gurudeva you are always present to guide me. Gurudeva, I write you so many letters and offer it in front of your picture and I get all the replies and guidelines through a devotee or your lectures. There is no difference in your picture and you live. Gurudeva you are epitome of compassion and love. Your flawless mercy is empowering me to go on. However I am not worthy of it.
Gurudeva how can you be so much merciful on such an insignificant/ undeserving disciple. Gurudeva, I ask u for mercy and you give me unlimited mercy. Gurudeva your compassion and love is magnanimous. In your current visit to delhi, I prayed in your lotus feet to grant me devotees association and hearing krsna's katha and you just filled it with unlimited mercy by giving 1 full month for hearing srimad bhagvatam. Gurudeva, I know I just keep asking for one and another thing and you still never let this flow of mercy stop on such an insignificant / fallen disciple of yours. My heart is filled with full of Anarthas, begging to you Gurudeva to make this dumb and foolish disciple of yours an instrument in serving the mission of srila prabhupada. Gurudeva you always answers my prayers though I don't even know how to pray genuinely. You reciprocates even with undeserving disciple of yours.
Begging at your lotus feet forgiveness for my knowingly and unknowingly done offenses. Seeking for your blessings!
Your insignificant Disciple
Megha Rupa Radhe Devi Dasi
(initiated, Delhi)