Namah om Vishnu Padaya Krishna preshthaya bhutale
Srimate Jayapataka Swamiin iti namine
Namah Acaryapadaya Nitai Kripa pradayine
Gaur katha dham daya nagare graam tarine
Hare Krishna Dear Gurumaharaj,
Please accept my respectful obeisances at your lotus feet. All glories to Srila Prabhupada and all glories to you.
All glories to your most auspicious appearance day! This day is most auspicious as an eternal associate of Lord Caitanya appeared to save us conditioned souls!
Gurumaharaj just as Lord Ananta cannot fully describe the glories of the Supreme Lord Sri Krishna, one cannot describe the transcendental glories of a pure devotee like you. Especially a conditioned soul like me. Had you wanted you could have left in 2008 only and many times thereafter, but you stayed just to save rotting souls like me. And if we hadn't gotten your shelter we were going to hell only.
Despite such fragile health and difficult conditions, how can someone travel so much out of utmost compassion for conditioned souls rotting here? For serving Srila Prabhupada, no external difficulty could stop you! This amazes the entire Iskcon, all devotees, everyone who knows you. You are a gift of Lord Caitanya to us, having come straight from the spiritual world. And your mercy knows no bounds.
As for me, it is now that I have actually begun to realize how much I owe you! Had you not accepted me so lovingly in 2016, I was surely going on the path to hell. I could never control my mind & senses, which were completely dictated by lust. And I could never think of a day when I would be actually out of it. I was in the darkest phase, darkest ignorance. How your mercy worked throughout was marvelous. You kept helping me all the time, even without my knowledge. By your mercy I could get back on the right track and now I understand that hadn't it been for you, I would have fallen more and more. I begged you always to help me and You actually saved me so many times after that also as I fell many times afterwards.
You had inspired me to worship Lord Jagannath in a conversation, this instruction actually saved me! Somehow I got the Deities, and although my standard of worship is not high, because of Lord Jagannath at home, so many miracles happened. I got my much needed emotional support and my parents started becoming devotees.
Then you saved me from another disaster in temple. By your mercy and always extended support through your emails, I started doing harinaam sankirtan in temples, which helped me so much to improve further. By your mercy, I could even serve for some time in Srila Prabhupada Samadhi kirtan in Iskcon Vrindavan, which were my best days. In this lockdown period, your simple instructions of attending mangal arti online, doing loud kirtan in veranda, are really helping to stay Krishna conscious. All this proves how powerful the words of the spiritual master are. How much your guidance is valuable even in difficult times! I pray to Lord Nityananda that we may always receive such invaluable instructions from Your Divine Grace which ever help us to improve in our devotional service.
However, till recently I have been unable to follow the instruction you gave me for making new devotees. I apologize to you that I am hardly able to do that. Only little bit preaching here and there. So for this Gurumaharaj I really need your mercy and blessings that in order to serve you in your mission, I can do some substantial preaching and help others becomes devotees, and thereby be of some use to you. And also on this auspicious day, I again beg at your lotus feet to always keep me in your shelter and service. I pray at your lotus feet that I may become a pure devotee, I may be able to chant harinaam constantly, and achieve love of Sri Sri Gaur Nitai, Sri Sri Krishna Balaram, Sri Sri Radha Shyamsundar by your grace.
Your insignificant daughter,
Srutipriya Radharani Devi Dasi