Nama Om Vishnu Padaya Krsna prestaya bhutale
Srimate Jayapataka Swamin iti namine
Nama Acharya padaya nitai kripa pradayine
Gaura katha dhama daya nagara grama tarine
Dearest Guru Maharaja,
Please accept my respectful obeisances at the dust of your Lotus feet. All glories to your auspicious appearance day. All glories to your Divine grace. All glories to Srila Prabhupada's victory flag.
I have no qualification to describe your wonderful glories Gurudeva. But to get purified and seek your blessings i shall attempt to glorify your ocean like qualities.
You are such an amazing sculptor Gurudeva. A stone hearted person like me who listens from you with faith and devotion gets sculpted into a wonderful statue and immediately takes up to the service in Srila Prabhupada's mission to please you.
Alas! My anartha filled heart is only becoming harder day by day Gurudeva. My faith is so fluctuating. I know you are my only hope, your instructions are the only light in my dark life. But my laziness and offending mentality is pulling me down. Please Gurudeva i am swimming in this ocean of material suffering and i do not know of anyone who can lift me up other than you.
You are always looking for opportunities to spread the love of Gauranga to everyone. This corona lockdown, you turned it into Karuna sagara. Everyone is drowning in spiritual bliss. You don't miss giving your association on Facebook no matter what health challenges you are facing. You are advising all of us to stay at home and stay safe. So much care! So much Love! More than what we can take. You are an ocean of love Gurudeva. That determination to preach, be it rain or shine. The determination that you have to please Srila Prabhupada is so mind boggling. Sometimes i am dumbstruck to see you so enthusiastic and so lively. I feel from where is this energy coming? No sign of illness, no trace of pain. Just like how Hanuman had his Lords in his heart always, you have Gauranga in your heart always. You encourage every one to happily practice Krsna Consciousness. Please bless me with an iota of determination that you have to serve Srila Prabhupada. I really want to please you Gurudeva. O father, if you do not bestow your mercy upon me, who else will save me?
My mentors have always been instructing and guiding me spiritually. But this wicked mind of mine, doesn't let me accept their instructions. Gurudeva please bless me with the intelligence to accept that i am a fool. I want to follow the instructions of my mentors because i know that is what will please you the most. Please bless me not to question their instructions and to accept them as they are. I do not want to use my intelligence to follow their instructions. I just want to surrender Gurudeva.
I have always been worrying about petty things and not been able to give my heart and soul to preach, Gurudeva. Instead of having the faith that Krishna provides, I am only meditating on my own needs selfishly and how to procure them. Dear father, please help me to chant offenselessly and attentively. For i know that is the only way i can get out of my anxiety. But that is possible only by your mercy. I, along with my husband (Bala Murari Das) and daughter (Ruchira Radhe) want to selflessly preach and please you dear father. My heart is fervent with the aspiration to please you by preaching but is over powered with the taunting games of my mind.
I wholeheartedly beg for your mercy on this auspicious day when you are most merciful. May your divine lotus feet be the only goal of my mind and heart. Let me not have any other aspirations other than pleasing you by following the instructions of my mentors. I only want the blessing that i render service to your lotus feet life after life in the association of devotees. For this blessing alone will take care of everything else in my life.
Your useless daughter,
Gandharvi Gopika Devi Dasi (Diksha disciple)
ISKCON New Rajapur Jagannatha Dham
Magadi Main Road, Bangalore
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Yours
Gandharvi Gopika Devi Dasi
"Life is illusion.. Total dependence on Guru is reality..!!"