Hare Krsna Gurudev
My satakoti Pranams unto your Lotus feet
I was just wondering why it takes so long a time for me to write a Vyasapuja offering. While thus contemplating I realized that I am such a wretched soul that I do not have any words to glorify my Spiritual Master. Such is my condition that it is so difficult to glorify someone, especially the one who is the cause of being what I am today. But when it comes to fault finding it is very easy.
So first and foremost I beg unto your lotus feet that I am able to come out of my fault finding propensity in others. That I am able to see only the good in others. Never commit vaishnav aparadh. Be grateful for what I am today; grateful for the wonderful association of devotees; grateful for my Gurudev who has accepted me as his spiritual daughter in spite of all my shortcomings and faults.
I really do not know Gurudev when I will be able to overcome all these anarthas; how many life times it is going to take for me. But one thing is sure, which makes me very confident that you are beside me, always guiding me, one day or the other I will be able to come out of all this; make you proud; bring glory to you.
Your mercy is always flowing to all your children without any discrimination, there is no need to ask for mercy, the problem is with me, I am not a good recipient.
So on this auspicious day of your Vysasa Puja, I beg not for your mercy but to become a recipient of your mercy and acknowledge your causeless mercy.
With gratitude I remain,
Your eternal spiritual daughter
Sacciyashoda devi dasi
Shyamadesh
Dated: 31st March 2021