Dearest Guru Maharaja,
Please accept my respectful obeisances at your lotus feet.
All glories to Srila Prabhupada! All glories to you, Srila Gurudeva!
This is my first time writing an offering to you. Thank you so much for giving me this opportunity.
You have saved my life by showering your causeless mercy and bringing me back into Krishna Consciousness. It had been a mystery to me how I got back into practicing Krishna Consciousness after having given up the practice for over 15 years and was headed in the direction of impersonalism. Just recently I realized you are the reason behind me finding my way back to Krishna Consciousness. It is only due to your causeless mercy. There is no other way!
Since I got back, it has been quite a journey. You have been so kind to provide your association and blessings regularly. You never miss a day to teach us about Lord Chaitanya even when you are struggling with your health. Your love and compassion for us conditioned souls is inconceivable. Words fall short when trying to speak your glories. It has been a truly magical experience practicing Krishna Consciousness now with your constant blessings and mercy. I was able to bring home Gaura Nitai deities and worship them nicely everyday. This has changed my life massively. Only by your mercy I am able to follow your class on Chaitanya Lila. Otherwise I have no qualification or intelligence to understand even a little bit. If not for you, I could not have been able to even know the importance of worshipping Panca Tattva. Even now I don't fully understand it. But may be just enough to start on this path and have the desire to serve you.
At first I wondered why you were so attached to preaching about Gauranga. All of this is such a secret and I have been able to understand it a little only by your mercy. You are giving Gauranga love to us fallen conditioned souls. Again, I have no qualification and I could easily be your worst, most fallen disciple. I have no hope other than holding on to your lotus feet. Even that I am not capable. So I request you to please keep me at your lotus feet, never let go of me and shower your mercy, so I am able to serve you with my full potential and make my way to Krishna behind you. I could chant and read all day. But without your mercy I will get nothing!
You provide us with instructions for literally everything in life, both material and spiritual. There is no need for confusion anywhere since we just have to follow your instructions and our life will be successful and we can get out of any challenging situations.
Gurudeva, I am eternally indebted to you. I want to serve you life after life. I wish to be a servant of your servants, eternally. I have a lot of impurities in my heart and I have a long way to go. But I have faith that you will help me. Only you can save me from the darkness and help me walk the path of Krishna Consciousness towards the light of pure devotion to Guru and Gauranga.
Your insignificant daughter and servant,
Swathi Suvarna
(Dublin, Ireland)