nama oṁ viṣṇu-pādāya kṛṣṇa-preṣṭhāya bhū-tale
śrīmate jayapatākā-svāmin iti nāmine
namo ācāryapādāya nitāi-kṛpa-pradāyine
gaura-kathā dhāmadhāya nagara-grāma tāriṇe
Respectful obeisances to my dear GuruMaharaj!
It is heart breaking to see your current condition and I sincerely pray to Lordships Radha Madhav and Lord Narasimha Dev to give you highest protection ever given to any devotee so far.
Your enthusiasm is very admiring and inspiring to me, however, I am unable to put a minute percentage of your service attitude in me. I have many spiritual desires but only in the mind and nothing in actions. My material attachments are somehow dominating my spiritual attachment and I pray you humbly to give me and my family a special bendiction of being steadfast in our sadhana. Especially my son Ruthwik needs a special boon to become a normal child and reduce his inattention and hyperactivity.
My wife Jiveswari is very concerned that, she is unable to take up any devotional service except chanting and one time deity worship and Ekadashi vrata, this is due to the health condition and this is the biggest challenge in our life for spiritual progress.
Sometimes, it is our great worry that whether would we be able to sustain spirituality and balance our material and spiritual life. I feel I am committing more aparadhas these days to devotees and hence I am unable to enjoy the spiritual bliss like before.
It is my spiritual desire that I should be along with my wife and son so that we all serve the lordships and improve our sadhana together.
Also it is my strongest desire to contribute my part by conducting many bhakti vrikshas and purify my self by engaging in this service which pleases you most.
Please empower me to become your ideal disciple without compramising on the Vaishnva qualities and please accept my humble insignificant services I am inolved in as a token of my love towards you.
Your humble servant,
SaciPrana Caitanya Dasa,
Jiveswari Visnupriya Devi Dasi,
Son : Ruthwik Kumar Mudigonda