nama oṁ viṣṇu-pādāya kṛṣṇa-preṣṭhāya bhū-tale
śrīmate jayapatākā-svāmin iti nāmine
namo ācāryapādāya nitāi-kṛpa-pradāyine
gaura-kathā dhāmadhāya nagara-grāma tāriṇe
Dear Gurudeva, in this very special day of your transcendental appearance, I can only thank you for so much causeless mercy. Day by day you surprise us by the example of austerity and love for Srila Prabhupada. Your body and consciousness are completely transcendental.
Last year, on this same date, we were with you in Sri Mayapur Dham. It was like a dream and we didn’t want to go away from you. I would become ecstatic every time you would take the Darshan of the deities and didn’t want to miss the opportunity to receive your mercy, your Lotus hand in my head.
The anxiety to offer you some personal service was also immense. At least, I could wash a knife with the saying “JPS” at your kitchen, and I got very happy.
I beg to Lord Krsna so as the years pass, I don’t forget these precious moments I was so close to you. You are my inspiration to make me try to help this Harinama-Sankirtana Mission.
You, even very ill, initiated many devotees at the Gaura Purnima, I got really surprised and really scared to lose you. Please, gurumaharaj, give me intelligence so I can understand. I know we will never lose you. Moreover, here where I leave (Curitiba Mandir) has the same mood His holiness preaches.
When we came back from Mayapur, it was like we didn’t have left there. You are present specially in my godbrothers and in Hara Kanta prabhu, your loyal servant.
Grudeva, I ask for your divine blessings so our daughter, Gaurapriya, may stay on this same path, so she can realize the beauty of Krsna Conscious life and so, reach it.
My gurumaharaj, please, accept my most humble obeisances unto your lotus feet, which, in this day, many devotees have the mercy to bath. In your last year’s vyasa puj, chant Sri Sri guruastakam in your transcendental presence was a really merciful experience.
I hope someday to satisfy you.
Your meaningless servant,
Lila Kamalini Devi Dasi.