nama oṁ viṣṇu-pādāya kṛṣṇa-preṣṭhāya bhū-tale
śrīmate jayapatākā-svāmin iti nāmine
namo ācāryapādāya nitāi-kṛpa-pradāyine
gaura-kathā dhāmadhāya nagara-grāma tāriṇe
My dear Sri Guru Maharaj,
Please accept my most humble and respectful obeisances. All glories to Your Divine Grace.
I’m the most fallen, sinful rascal with no knowledge, think myself as most wise, have no control over my mind, tongue, lust, anger, greed etc. I am the most egoistic rascal that I always think others as rascal and do not give respect to them including my wife, parents & in laws. I have heard that Krishna is merciful but it’s very hard to reach Him. Rather than Krishna Gauranga Mahaprabhu is more merciful and whomever Mahaprabhu does not reach Lord Nityananda Prabhu reaches to them with his unconditional causeless mercy. But I’m so fallen that I am unable to accept the mercy of Lord Nityananda. Therefore, I am seeking mercy from your lotus feet and aspiring to be your disciple, because you are distributing Nitai Kripa causelessly.
By mercy of Acharya Chandra Das prabhu, son of your disciple I have received the priceless Holy name. I had good fortune to sit in your class at Mayapur Dham. But unfortunately, I do not remember anything except your loud chanting of “Gauranga” as I was sleeping in the class. I am such a rascal that even after staying in devotee’s association for 2-3 years I have escaped and started sinful life again. I know you never forgot me and that’s why you have sent your disciples to me and brought back under the umbrella of Bhaktivriksa.
I have heard in one of your lecture that “Krishna prasade Guru mile” therefore I have requested to Lord Jagannath to find out Guru for me as I am confused and have no prayers to offer and don’t know what to do. Within few days I have received call from your disciple Sri Amani Goura Chandra Das, he pickd me from my home given class, given tasty prasadam and told me about your causeless mercy and I got convinced immediately. After this you came to me personally, given me shelter to your holy lotus feet although I was not able to follow the rules & regulations. Also, you have blessed my wife & child (that time he was in womb for 2.5 months). Whatever I could follow today, it’s only by your causeless mercy. The quality association whatever I am getting it’s only by your divine grace.
Dear Guru Maharaj, I am trying to serve You, Srila Prabhupada, Lord Gauranga & all devotees, trying to learn mridangam & harmonium. Please bless me so that right words come to my tongue at right moment with right spirit for the glorification to you, Prabhupada and Lord Gauranga, perfect sweet sounds come out when I touch mridangam. Please bless me so that I can offer some prayers to Lord Gauranga & Nityananda, get little taste to Holy name and be compassionate to all living beings & show love to them.
Again and again I bow down to your lotus feet. All glories to Your Divine Grace.
Your insignificant most fallen aspiring servant,
Biplab Ghosh