Dear Gurudeva,
It was on April,2017 after one month of taking shelter of Srila Prabhupada, that I had a dream of a Vaishnava with bald head and kanthi as a boatman ,asking me to board the boat , calling me to Sridham Mayapur, finally when I shared my dream with the senior Devotees and by their causeless Mercy they were ready to take me to Mayapur, but I was not getting leave from the office. Luckily on 7th April 2017, I got the leave as well as Devotees association to come Mayapur from Kolkata and I didn’t know that time that day was Your Vyasa Puja and for the first time in this life I met You . I had no idea who You are and what Vyasa Puja means.
I could see only crowd of Devotees, It was hard time to even enter the temple and take darshan of lordships but somehow , H.G Carusasi Mataji managed to take me near Radha Madhav ,Astha Sakhi altar and that time You were brought by the Devotees and as soon as You entered the temple hall, the crowd started rushing towards You and the place were I was standing was empty , I was left with wonders to know the Personality in wheel chair , just to see Him everyone deserted even Radha Madhav!!!
What is the Special quality that Swamiji holds that Devotees are mad to take His darshan was the only thought that was reeling in my mind. I offer my obeisances to Radha Madhav and came back outside and asked about You , Devotees said me to listen the Glorification session to know about You ,so outside the pancha tatwa hall , I remain completely satisfied listening Your Glorification, I realise and found myself so fortunate to see you ,listen about You on that divine day and started secretly to admire You as my Guru who was asking me to board the boat in my dreams .
In the very same months , I had to come back my hometown Jayanti due to unavoidable circumstances and I had come back leaving behind everything , At that time ,ISKCON was new words introduced to my family as well as in Jayanti and there was no internet available here so that I could show them about ISKCON.
I missed Kolkata and Bhakti Vriksha so much ,but there was no way to go back Kolkata as my parents wanted me to stay and look after our own school. For my parents it was hard to accept me with kanthi and tilak as our family was a Pure non vegetarian that time and one day ,I asked Your picture from H G Suhrit Murari Prabhu , and He suggested that even if someone offer prayers to Your picture ,You listen. I helplessly prayed to get Devotees association and the very next day it was shocking to see 25 Namhatta Devotees coming to Jayanti for temple and mountain visit for the first time and I saw them in my life . That day I realized about Your causeless Mercy and realise all Your Glorification which I heard on the very first day of Your meeting .I craved for Devotees association and I got them only by Your causeless Mercy. Those Merciful Devotees helped me to associate with near by Namhatta and then to District preachers H.G Shyam Sakha Das Brahmacari Prabhu and H.G Sarvapriya Chaitanya Prabhu and to H.H Gauranga Prem Swami Maharaj and finally to You and they not only helped me but also my parents to come to Krsna conciousness.
Finally the dream came true when I was still unqualified but You initiated me along with my father. It was the day when I didn’t know anything about devotion, neither to read scripture or even pranaam Mantra, and now it’s all by Your causeless Mercy, that I am pursuing Bhakti sastri online from Mayapur Institute ( which I never dreamt also )as well preaching and giving classes online and offline. Guru Maharaj, I am thankful for Your every single care and listening to my every single prayers .Always in debt for uplifting me from the material miseries. Thank You so much Guru Maharaj for unconditional love care and guidance, Your fighting Fit Spirit, always gives tremendous energy Your love and support are the divine nectar for life. Thank You so much for love ,care and blessing Guru Maharaj.
Your insignificant Diksha Daughter
Sasirupa Lalita Devi dasi.
(JAINTIA HILLS)
ALIPURDUAR; WEST BENGAL
INDIA
