Jayapatākā Swami Mahārāja
Most beloved Guru Mahārāja,
Please accept my most respectful obeisance’s to your lotus feet, where many conditioned souls beg to take shelter.
All glories to Your Divine Grace who’s only ambition is to Serve His Divine Grace Śrīla Prabhupāda who has given the whole world the shade of His Divine Lotus feet, with His unconditional mercy.
I have no understanding of why or how I ever came to be part of this wonderful spiritual family, but I am so happy that I did. It is the most worthwhile event in all my lifetimes.
Guru Mahārāja you have shown me countless of times, how to overcome obstacles that I face while in this material condition world, and so many times I am overcome by your love and concern for me, even if your very own material body is undergoing such harsh pain and to see You to have to endure this makes it so hard for me. Many times, I wanted to come online but to see all that you are having to deal with make it so painful for me to witness.
Every year that is passing is just one step less to take here in the material world if we only just surrender fully without asking anything but to serve the Spiritual Master and Śrī Kṛṣṇa.
I miss so much the personal service we got to do when you arrive, the ecstatic moments of listening to You and watching your wide smile as you look around at all of the devotees in your presence.
You actually love all the devotees and always trying to make them happy just by a word that they take into their hearts or a sweet or mahā-prasāda.
The very first time I spoke to You emotional as I was, and confused I asked a question which was “How can one know His Spiritual Master after Śrīla Prabhupāda lifted so many were worthy and having different qualities of His Divine Grace?”
Your reply was, “Just go and pray to Lord Nityānanda and he will guide you to your Guru.”
Today Guru Mahārāja is Lord Nityānanda and I am remembering those words, that brought me to Your Lotus feet.
Guru Mahārāja this is the only thing that made my whole life worthwhile.
You asked me the day before Initiation so when are you going to become serious?
My reply was Now Guru Mahārāja considering after all I had been around in the movement for around 15 years after Śrīla Prabhupāda left, I didn’t know if I ever get the chance to become involved in ISKCON and being with devotees.
You Guru Mahārāja at that time You were the only one who actually considered to Initiate those who lived outside of the temple but as long as they were doing service and preaching, at that time everyone had to live inside the temple to get the initiation.
Of course, I was helping making a preaching center at that time in Terni and we had the Radio Kṛṣṇa a 24-hour nonstop, at that time I had to put on tapes every hour or so, which is still ongoing but with computer now.
So, you gave me the blessing to take Initiation even if I was living outside the temple.
This was not possible at all in those days.
Now it has become possible only by your mercy Guru Mahārāja, that anyone who has the desire to become serious in Kṛṣṇa Conscious and help serve Śrīla Prabhupāda mission you have made this an actual reality to all living entities, and now everyone is implementing this idea of Nāmahaṭṭa and home preaching and it’s become a huge success with thousands of gṛhasthas taking shelter, such is Your Huge Heart and mercy to us. Thank you, Guru Mahārāja, just by making this little insignificant soul just a small speck of dust at Your Lotus feet I bow to those lotus feet eternally.
Your most useless servant but always praying to remain dedicated to You,
Līlāvilāsinī devī dāsī (Dīkṣā)
Italy (Terni)
