Dearest Guru Mahārāja,
Please accept my respectful obeisances to the dust of your merciful lotus feet. All glories to Your Divine Grave, my kind savior! All glories to your beloved Śrīla Prabhupāda!
I am extremely grateful for all the love, attention, care, kindness, guidance, instructions and association you have given me all these years. I'm very grateful to you and to Kṛṣṇa. I'm aware I don't deserve such a mercy and yet here I am your disciple. Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!
The first time we met face to face, I was one more in a big group of devotees at your room door at the Bronco temple in Lima Peru. You said to me in front of everybody: Victoria has abandoned me! in Spanish. (I had thought about taking initiation from another nice Guru, but when you came I felt in my heart that it was you who I wanted to take initiation from). Oh My Kṛṣṇa! At that moment I felt like a little match next to the sun! How you knew the desire of my heart to take you as my Guru Mahārāja! So from that moment I feel so fortunate that you showered your mercy on me. During the next 30 something years I have been a very happy recipient of your love and mercy. And wonderful, wonderful association. Thank you Guru Mahārāja! So many nice pastimes with Your Divine Grace. Thank you! If I would be intelligent and determined by now with all that mercy I should be a pure devotee.
You want all your disciples and all the devotees and all the non-devotees to go back to Kṛṣṇa, to be engaged in pure devotional service. Like Jananivāsa Prabhu says: You live for others. Everybody is trying to squeeze some happiness out of this existence, but your happiness is to please Śrīla Prabhupāda and see the conditioned souls getting closer to Kṛṣṇa. You are amazing! Your life is amazing! The depth of your love for Kṛṣṇa and the depth of your devotional service is beyond my comprehension.
You are always with Kṛṣṇa and Kṛṣṇa is always with you. How wonderful that is and how unparallel your mercy is that you accepted me as your disciple. Thank you Guru Mahārāja!
I remember many wonderful pastimes with Your Divine Grace. They are all so beautiful! This one is one of my favorites. We were in Atlanta, many years ago and you had ordered some new watches online that had arrived. So immediately everybody in the room started to think what will happen with the watch (mahā) that you were wearing for about a year or so! I really, really wanted it. You were leaving that day and once at the airport, another mātājī and I started asking about the watch and see if we could have it, so the rest of the big group decided they also wanted the watch, you sometimes were teasing us moving your Seiko mahā watch like a pendulum in front of us what increased the desire to have that watch in everybody's heart even more. The pleads went on for a long time, some gave up, but the other mātājī and myself were more determined. Then her daughter said: Guru Mahārāja don't give it to anybody otherwise everybody will be envious. And at that point I knew that I needed special help, so at that time I was dressing Śrī Śrī Gaura Nitāi, Parama Karuṇa, every day, so I started praying to Them that if it was Their desire I could have your mahā watch and at that moment, something amazing happened: I could see you, I could see all the devotees around you wanting the watch, the airport, but I could not hear anything. And few seconds later or so, I see you giving the other mātājī the new watch that you have just put on and I knew you were going to give me the old mahā one I wanted. You walked towards me with the watch in your hand, I was crying a river by then, and you put the watch in my hand and then you said pray to Lord Narasiṁhadeva for me. Best day of my life needless to say! I know Gaura Nitāi told you about my prayer. Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!
Just by looking at us, your disciples, you know where we stand spiritually and you are always helping us to make more advancement. You still love us and encourage us no matter how many material anarthās we may have. So I thank you for that also Guru Mahārāja.
I can't conceive a life without your blissful, loving, wonderful full of mercy personal association. So as you instructed me I pray to Lord Narasiṁhadeva for you. I pray to the most merciful Lord Narasiṁhadeva to please give you a very, very, very healthy free of any discomfort long life so we can continue experiencing the presence of Kṛṣṇa through you. You are my life and soul. Thank you for everything Guru Mahārāja and please forgive all my offenses.
Your loving insignificant servant forever,
Vijaya Rādhā Devī Dāsī