Dear Guru Mahārāja,
Please accept my respected obeisances at your lotus feet
All glories to Śrī Gurudeva! All glories to Śrīla Prabhupāda!
Just as it is said that Lord Sesha even with hunderds of mouths in unable to glorify Śrī Kṛṣṇa completely, a conditioned soul like will not be able to do justification of glorifying you, I can just try to my capacity. This is the first year writing my Vyāsa-pūjā offering after getting initiated by you. In shastras we hear that guru is mercy personified, but I am one of those who has received your mercy.
I remember when I went for taking initiation, there prabhuji told that they missed to send my name to you for initiation and asked if I could come next day. Then one prabhuji from JPS office told that they will try and see if it’s possible to get initiation that day and had asked me to sit there along with other candidates.
And there started initiation lecture by one Mahārāja and they were mentioning that if any one of you will be asked that you can not get initiation today, what will you think and how you will behave. And Mahārāja said, you should agree and say Okay Guru Mahārāja, whenever you say I will take at that time only and start leaving from there.
At that time I thought, yes this part of lecture is certainly for me, I think Kṛṣṇa has prepared me that I will not get initiated today, and I will follow what Mahārāja is saying.
Then Mahārāja continued in the lecture, when you will start leaving Guru Mahārāja may call you and give you initiation and that is actually the mercy of Guru. Without knowing the candidate personally, Guru is taking the responsibility of taking you back to godhead and that is what causeless mercy is called.
And indeed my name was announced at the beginning and I didn’t thought that within 2 hours after sending the name, I will get initiated that day. It was all your causeless mercy only Guru Mahārāja.
I remember 2 years before you came to ISKCON Hyderabad, Abids temple, and there I got the sevā of preparing pumpkin juice every morning for you. I tried to meet you even once that time and ask for blessings but it couldn’t happen. Certainly, I was not qualified to even receive your mercy. But, when next time I came to Māyāpur in jhulan-yātrā time, by your mercy arrangement, I got the opportunity to honor your māha prasāda. I realised that it is your way of sending blessings and mercy.
I am eagerly waiting for the day you will start walking again Guru Mahārāja.
Although unqualified, I pray to Śrī Śrī Rādhā Mādhava, Pañca-Tattva, Śrī Narasiṁhadeva, Śrī Jagannātha Baladeva Subhadrā, Śrīla Prabhupāda that we get your association life after life and certainly in this life for a long.
Guru Mahārāja, hearing you everyday class on Caitanya Līlā completes our day and getting updates on JPS App makes us feel attached to you, sometimes we wonder from where you get so much energy to manage everything, But then next moment Śrīla Prabhupāda’s and Māyāpur deities pictures comes in our mind.
Guru Mahārāja, please bless me so that I can also serve you and guru paramparā on eternity, and not get allured by māyā.
A small poem written by me offered unto your lotus feet:
After going through so many repeated cycles of births - death - old age - disease,
We have been lucky to catch your lotus feet and cross this ocean with breeze.
We see you as real mercy personified,
Even though we are not so qualified.
As we are struggling in this material swirled,
You are ready to take us to spiritual world.
You are mercy personified for us,
ready to take all of us in Saṅkīrtana bus.
You have so much abundant mercy for all living beings,
Alas we’re so unlucky caring for here temporary things.
If we didn’t got shelter of your lotus feet in this life,
we would had spent our life in strife.
You give every night class on Lord Caitanya,
It’s like sounds coming out from Pañchjanya.
Please shower your blessings and mercy on us,
that we can engage in devotional service thus.