Hare Kṛṣṇa dear Guru Mahārāja.
Please accept my respectful obeisances at your lotus feet
All glories to Śrīla Prabhupāda.
All glories unto you Guru Mahārāja on your auspicious appearance day!
Neither have I understood your true mercy, and even if I understand a drop of your glory through your dear most disciples, then I do not find any words befitting enough to glorify you Guru Mahārāja.
But by your mercy and the blessings of His Grace Vijay Venugopal Prabhu and Her Grace Prema Padmini mātājī; and His Grace Prasannātma Balarāma prabhu and Her Grace Purnanandini Mādhavī mātājī and all the glorious Vaiṣṇavas, I am sure that even a fallen soul like me, can do devotional service that would spread the glory of Śrīman Caitanya Mahāprabhu and His senāpati bhakta Śrīla Prabhupāda and the glorious sacrifice of his ever glorious disciples. Hence, I am attempting to glorify you Guru Mahārāja.
mūkaṁ karoti vācālaṁ paṅguṁ laṅghayate girim
yat-kṛpā tam ahaṁ vande śrī-guruṁ dīna-tāraṇam
"I offer my respectful obeisances unto my spiritual master, the deliverer of the fallen souls. His mercy turns the dumb into eloquent speakers and enables the lame to cross mountains."
I am indebted to you Guru Mahārāja for accepting me as your spiritual daughter. Though I had the desire to take shelter under you for the past 7 years, there had been a lot of insecurities and blockages from my end. But you had always been merciful to this fallen soul.
Pure devotees of the Lord are more powerful than the waters of the sacred river Ganges. One can derive spiritual benefit out of prolonged use of the Ganges waters. But one can be sanctified at once by the mercy of a pure devotee of the Lord. (- Śrīmad-bhāgavatam 1.1.15 purport)
I couldn't perceive the glory of receiving the mercy and association of a pure devotee, but I practically saw that in my life in the past two years. After receiving your blessings and mercy in 2019 when you visited Bangalore, life had been so different. Though It was really testing materially, I could see spiritually it was very purifying and elevating!
By your mercy, I could understand the aparādha I committed in my dealings with Vaiṣṇavas and many other souls. I could understand how I had created many conditioning for myself lifetimes after lifetimes and the amount of karma that I have gathered is beyond imagination. By your causeless mercy, I could see that this material world is full of suffering and how souls like me have entangled ourselves in the material complexities due to unlimited desires to satisfy the senses. But as Kṛṣṇa forced Bhima in the battlefield of Kurukshetra to surrender Infront of the Nārāyaṇa astra; you drag and save us conditioned souls from the material ocean with your causeless mercy and love and put us under the shelter of Gaurāṅga Mahāprabhu.
I do not remember doing any service sincerely to please you Guru Mahārāja or any Vaiṣṇavas, but you have shown so much care and protection for my weak devotional creeper. During my tough times, I remember feeling hopeless and sincerely chanting your pranam mantra; (Though I was not initiated, but) you reciprocated to my prayers and had sent help within a few days through your dear most senior disciples through their guidance and care. I have no words to express the glory of your pastimes and the wonders that you create in our lives by bringing us closer and closer to Gaurāṅga Mahāprabhu!
In the past one year, by your mercy, I could chant the holy names much better and sincerely hear and read Bhāgavatam and Bhagavad Gītā. Through many people and at different times and by various means, many of my past anarthas were revealed to me, and you gave me the strength to undergo intense purification. By your mercy and the blessings of the Vaiṣṇavas I could then see a glance of the mercy of Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu on the fallen souls of this Kali Yuga. He has made everything very simple that just by crying and calling out GAURĀṄGA, GAURĀṄGA GAURĀṄGA GAURĀṄGA!, we get a taste for chanting the holy names of Kṛṣṇa!. How is it even possible! How can a word (as it seems to be eternally) be so powerful to cleanse the immense dirt accumulated in the heart from many lifetimes?!! Kṛṣṇa is His holy name! The glory of Śrīman Gaurāṅga Mahāprabhu's holy names are limitless. One need not undergo any intense austerities for purification, but just chant His holy name. Which other incarnation is more merciful than HIM!!.. If I understand even a drop of His mercy, and the causeless mercy of His dearmost associates and servants; I consider this human life of mine to be successful.
You have been merciful not just to me, but to my family too. My parents being non-devotees, I was worried how they would respond about me getting initiated. But I saw absolutely no obstacles and by your mercy, they watched the entire initiation online. My father was very happy to hear my new name and he kept saying it a few times. And when I returned home after initiation, he welcomed me by calling my initiated name. Your mercy and miracles are beyond words Guru Mahārāja!.
You have taken so much of our karma to deliver fallen souls like me. Yet you only show the happiness and joy that you experience in Gaurāṅga Consciousness. Within a few days after accepting me as your spiritual daughter and initiating me, your health deteriorated and had to undergo so much by taking our karma. I only pray at your lotus feet to always keep me under your shelter and give me the strength to always engage me in your service through all the tough and thin times, without any ulterior motive; and only for the pleasure of Guru and Gaurāṅga.
Thank You so much Guru Mahārāja for not giving up on me and guiding this crippled soul at each and every step with lots of love, care and patience in my journey to attain the supreme goal! I do not know how I can serve to please you. I beg and pray at your lotus feet to bless and shower your mercy on my parents Mahesh and Rani; my sister Veena, Piyush prabhu and myself so that we can make this human life successful in this very life time, and serve as many souls as possible on their journey to attain the shelter of Śrī Śrī Rādhā Mādhava and go back home back to Godhead. I really want to do pure devotional service Guru Mahārāja, but I don't even know what service is.
Guru Mahārāja, If you so desire, I have a humble request, to please bless myself and Piyush prabhu to come together and engage us in your service to Śrīla Prabhupāda.
Sevas that I render by the Vaiṣṇavas mercy:
Online Preaching
1) Bhakti-vṛkṣa - Nupur mātaji, Anjali mātaji (her father, Rāma Kṛṣṇa Reddy, left his body last month), Śiva Nārāyaṇa prabhu and Citrā mataji. Kindly request you to bless these devotees so that they can quickly progress and overcome the obstacles in their Kṛṣṇa Conscious life.
2) Children's class: Vyom, Vedhika, Sreenidhi, Sravya, Reyansh, Anagha.
3) Youth class: started an online class with college students, but the number of students interested are very less. Please bless Guru Mahārāja so that I could do a nice preaching.
(Requesting your blessings for all the above preaching activities so that more and more souls come and take shelter at the lotus feet of Śrī Śrī Gaura Nitāi)
I am currently doing Bhakti śāstri. Chanting 16 rounds (and few extra rounds Narasiṁha Kavachā, whenever possible for your good health so that you can travel again and preach) and following 4 regulative principles. Reading Śrīmad-bhāgavatam 5th canto.
Guru Mahārāja, requesting special blessings and mercy for wellbeing and spiritual progress of Himāni mātājī, Mahalakshmi mātājī, new born baby boy of Ambika mātājī, and for initiation of Kalyani mātājī (Goa) from HH Rādhānatha Swami Mahārāja.
Please bless this fallen soul so that I can engage in serving you and the Guru paramparā and all the Vaiṣṇavas by preaching extensively.
gurudeva!
kṛpā-bindu diyā, koro' ei dāse, tṛṇāpekhā ati hīna
sakala-sahane, bolo diyā koro nija māne spṛhā-hīna
Gurudeva, O spiritual master! Give to this servant just one drop of mercy. I am lower than a blade of grass. Give me all help. Give me strength. Let me be as you are, without desires or aspirations.
Children's class annual day celebration of Sanskrit club (2021-22): https://youtu.be/0gpUFS4yuOs
Janmashtami 2021 drama by children: https://youtu.be/gNb43k2Woqk
Aspiring to be your sincere servant,
Vidya Svarupīnī Rādhikā devī dāsī
(I love this name Guru Mahārāja! Thank you so much.)
