Hare Kṛṣṇa Dear Mahārāja
Please accept my humble obeisances at your lotus feet. All glories to Śrīla Prabhupāda.
I am honestly not sure what to write to you dearest Gurudeva. Throughout the year, my meditation on you is very cursory but suddenly I feel so empty and blank and not sure of what to write to you on the occasion of your Vyāsa-pūjā. You have always been a great strength to me and even without my awareness, you have been protecting me, guiding me and caring for me. You are a true father to thousands including myself. Like a true father, you have taken all the inconveniences to engage your sons, bore the brunt of the actions of some of the unruly children such as myself yet so kindly loved us all.
At this age and situation, when the best would have decided to chant the holy name and retire, you continue to spearhead several initiatives and continue to take keen interest even in the most avoidable administrative affairs so that devotees are cared for. You are a living example of how a pure devotee, fully immersed in the pastimes of Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu, can withstand any kind of material reversals. I feel afraid of the day this earth will be bereft of your direct association and what would be the state of thousands of sons. I can only pray this year that I can do my best to fulfil the desires of Śrīla Prabhupāda for the care of devotees and for the Dehradun city that you have engaged me in.
Dependent on your blessings and mercy, like a person dying of thirst looks for water.
Your servant
Parama Karuṇā Mādhava Dāsa.
Vṛndāvana, India