Hare Kṛṣṇa!
Jay Prabhupāda!
Jay Gurudeva!
Obeisances to Jayapatākā Swami Gurumahārāja!
Hare Kṛṣṇa Guru Mahārāja. I am pleased to submit my homage under your holy feet begging to bless me to fit myself perfectly well within the Kṛṣṇa Conscious suite, so that Māyā may not have option to kick me away from this Kṛṣṇa Consciousness.
After joining ISKCON movement in Doha, I felt very pleasant to have the devotees associations, as it helped me to open a new account in Devotional Service which was temporarily inactive since I came to this Muslim country from India. The way the āratis were performed in devotees’ house just like a
temple, the way uniformity was maintained in performing such āratis in every devotees’ house, the structural way of doing pravacan and finally the way out after SB or BG class with a tasty and blessed prasādam made me to get attached with such association very easily as it gave happiness not to my body but to my soul.
I was involved in performing devotional service and Hindu rituals, from my adolescent age. But I felt very humiliated later after joining ISKCON movement, as I came to know that doing such devotional service and rituals were of no use at all, without taking them to other soul. Earlier I was just a glowing candle melting myself by being in a dark room alone, but after joining ISKCON movement, understood various ways to spread that luminosity to bring brightness for other rooms too. Yes, I really feel my soul getting pleasure in taking the devotional essence to other soul.
Though I feel the change within, I could not sustain the change and thereby follow the devotional activity inconsistently. The basic reason behind this is my incapability in prioritizing my daily activities towards the devotional service and material life. Further reason in depth could be the less faith I have developed towards Lord Kṛṣṇa, even after involving in devotional service. I sometimes fear that I am lagging in performing my duty as a father neither able to feed full devotional essence to my children nor able to bring them as a Performers in their school education.
Hence, I fall under your lotus feet to bless me to develop deep faith towards Kṛṣṇa and relieve me from the fear I have in mind and thereby nourish my children to bring them further deep in the Kṛṣṇa conscious movement and bring more and more souls to the Kṛṣṇa Conscious movement through pravacan.
I take owe to listen more ISKCON guru paramparā’s pravacan and to do vāṇī-sevā to Prabhupāda. But I need your blessings to keep that owe, so that I can develop deep faith towards Kṛṣṇa and therby lead a fearless life.
Guru Mahārāja Ki Jai!!!!
Humbled Kṛṣṇa Sevāka
S. Candra Śekhar (aspiring disciple)
Śrī Ādikeṣava Dhāma Cakra, KKD