My dear Srila Gurumaharaj.
Please accept my humble obeisances,
All glories to Srila Prabhupada
All glories to Your divine grace.
On this auspicious occasion of your 69th Vyasapuja, I beg for your mercy to offer my humble homage.
Gurumaharaj, with the treatments you are undergoing there, is a lot of pain involved and I have never seen anybody in my life who can tolerate such bodily pain. This proves You are the mountain of tolerance. Last year was very tough for me Gurudev. During that time I remembered how you are tolerating the difficulties and you have encouraged me to depend on Krishna, You are teaching by example. On the other hand, I feel I am the cause of your suffering Sorry Gurumaharaj please forgive all my offence and I beg for mercy to overcome all my anarthaas, sinful actions.
Only recently I came to know that you have written so many books, you have given so many instructions, suggestions which are very useful for me in my sadhana, but I am such a fool I came to know only now. So, I beg for your mercy so that I may be able to read and understand these books and practice these instructions.
Dear Gurudev, I missed your “vapu” service for the second year. Must be because of my countless offences on to your lotus feet. I feel a longing for the ocean of your mercy. I am hankering desperately for this service Gurumaharaj, please give me your mercy to do this service again and again.
Gurumaharaj with your recent email messages you touched my heart. I feel as though you are talking about me. Please continue to give me the instructions. You also said instructions are given only when one is capable of fulfilling them.
I beg at your lotus feet for the abundant mercy, as I am the most fallen. All glories to Srila Gurudeva.
Your Insignificant servant,
Srivasa Nitai Gaura Das.