My dearest beloved Guru Mahārāja,
Please accept my humble obeisances unto Your Divine lotus feet. All glories to Jagat Guru Śrīla Prabhupāda, all glories to You, Guru Mahārāja.
All glories to Your auspicious appearance day dearest Guru Mahārāja.
First of all, I would like to sincerely apologize from the bottom of my heart for any mistake I make since this is my first time, I am writing to You dearest Guru Mahārāja.
How should I glorify You dearest Guru Mahārāja? I have no words! As my śīkṣā-guru, Yamuneśvarī Mātājī always says that You can read and feel all our minds and hearts! You may be physically very far from us, but You are mentally and spiritually always connected to us. Guru Mahārāja, despite of You being with me and my kids 24/7. I’m a sinner, I am a sinner, I am a sinner. It has been around 10 years now that You have showered all your mercy upon my kids and me. I am spiritual very unwell Dear Guru Mahārāja, please shower Your mercy upon my kids and me as we are going through very tough time materially and spiritually.
Guru Mahārāja I read somewhere that in this Kali-yuga, Gaurāṅga Mahāprabhu is more merciful than Kṛṣṇa. My personal experience says that You are much much more merciful then Gaurāṅga Mahāprabhu! Within these past 10 years You have shown tremendous amount of mercy to my family due to which we are still existing in this planet.
Dear Guru Mahārāja, my mother, Madhuśrī Patel also shares her 73rd birthday with you today. Please bless my mother’s soul. You gave my mother special blessings few days before she left her body last year 5 January. I, as Your spiritual daughter cannot ever repay You for all that You have done and are doing for all of us dearest Guru Mahārāja, despite of very ill health.
I know how material bound I used to be before coming into Kṛṣṇa consciousness, unfortunately I still am Guru Mahārāja. Without Your kṛpā and mercy I cannot move an inch! I ought it to my śīkṣā-gurus, I ought it to You, dearest Guru Mahārāja kṛpā kara, give me the intelligence to correct myself from all the wrong paths and read the scriptures spontaneously and follow all principals to the path of taking initiation. So much is there to say Guru Mahārāja, You know my mental condition, I’m too fallen, please help me to rise up in my Kṛṣṇa consciouness dearest Guru Mahārāja and I beg of You to forgive me for all the sins committed knowingly and unknowingly.
I love You so much Guru Mahārāja, You are my father You are my mother. You are my everything. Please don’t ever leave me alone. I have no existence without You dear father. I love You.
Your most unqualified and sinful daughter,
Alka Niranjan Patel.
Bhaktivedanta Manor, London, Uk