Hare Kṛṣṇa Daṇḍavat Praṇāma please accept my Respectful obeciences unto your Lotus Feet Śrīla Gurudeva...!!
Śrīla Gurudeva every year I try to find words within my heart that can properly glorify Gurudeva. I have come to a realization that I don’t have a heart worthy of your glorification as it’s harder than a rock and almost non-existent. But by your mercy and the strength of Gurudeva, I manage to make a pitiful offering. Gurudeva tirelessly preaches all over the world and inspire thousands and thousands of souls to follow our bellowed Śrī Mahāprabhu and his instructions for chanting the holy name and performing Harināma saṅkīrtana without offenses. In every way Gurudeva is teaching us how to be a devotee and to serve our eternal beautiful Śrī Śrī Rādhā Kṛṣṇa Yugala Kiśora. Yet due to our contamination we cannot follow the basic instructions of our beloved Gurudeva and What to think of following higher instructions. Gurudeva by the mercy of Śrī Kṛṣṇa I have come into contact with Gurudeva, and I think I have been fortunate enough to make a negligible advancement and for that I am eternally grateful. My constant prayer is that I will one day realize the blessings I have received and to be eligible to serve with Gurudeva and Śrī Rūpa Mañjarī in the groves of Vṛndāvana. Right now I feel that I am an embarrassment to Gurudeva and I am not worthy for even submitting this pitiful offering. I only pray that some of my offering is genuine enough for Gurudeva’s worth and not just words that are of no value.
From the bottom of our heart Gurudeva we know you are a fully realize soul and you are our salvation from this miserable situation. Our humble prayer is that Gurudeva don’t give up on us and have patience with us. Some devotees develop quickly and other slowly. Guru Mahārāja Please allow us to be your insignificant servant’s life as said when the pupil is ready the teacher will appear: you showed me the way to serving at the lotus feet of Śrī Śrī Rādhā Kṛṣṇa and for that I’m eternally grateful to you.
May you continue to spread the message of Mahāprabhu: the only way in this Age of Kali is the chanting of the holy name - Hare Kṛṣṇa, Hare Kṛṣṇa, Kṛṣṇa Kṛṣṇa, Hare Hare/ Hare Rāma, Hare Rāma, Rāma Rāma, Hare Hare,
Daṇḍavat Praṇāma and good wishes to you Gurudeva on your Vyāsa-pūjā.
Your forever grateful disciple I am so sad that you are not here today, that I cannot hear the sweet voices of all the devotees singing your glories Gurudeva you are such a perfect representative of Śrī Śrī Rādhāpārthasārathi Gurudeva I pray on this most auspicious day that someday I will develop by your grace the strong desire to follow the sincere souls who are truly dedicated to you and our entire guru lineage, to make my life successful and become a real disciple, Mahārāja on this your appearance day I am reminded of your compassion and kindness to anyone who is in your vicinity. Your compassion is shown by the way you give Kṛṣṇa to everyone who comes to you. No matter how fallen or how advanced an aspiring Devotee is you were constantly encouraging, enlivening and showing the proper way to do things.
Your kindness is manifested by the way you care for each individual that comes to you. I have experienced in the past how you are always concerned and are very personal with your disciples. Your tolerance that I have seen through the years in different situations shows me by example how I hope to be. Within this past year I have had major pain physically and emotionally but somehow you have help me and gave me the strength to deal with it and rise above it. When I am in your association either vāṇī or vapuḥ I always feel enliven to be a better person in my life… Spiritual n even in my material dealing. I am forever your servant a soul surrendered to you Mahārāja. You planted a seed of love and devotion in my heart. The land was dry. And there was not much growth in the beginning. But You didn’t seem to be disappointed or frustrated. You just kept watering the sprout with Your endless care and affection. You observed its growth, giving nurture and protection it needed. This if how much dedication and faith you have. This is how much you believe in Your disciples. You never give up. Always having hope, ready to give Your encouragement and support.
The human brain has a function that makes us adjustable to everything in our life. It improves our ability to survive physically and mentally but may make us forgetful and ungrateful. With that function inside we become adjustable even to severe sufferings and pain. But in the same time we are easily getting used to be adored, to be taken care of, and to be nourished. And it used to happen to me! How many times I took You for granted. And still You were there for me. How many times I didn’t show You due respect! How many times Still you were there for me. This is how much forgiveness You have to your disciples. This how much love You have for me and for all of us.
I do believe that Guru is a form of Kṛṣṇa in a disciple’s life. And the biggest gift that You gave me being my guru is the sense of Kṛṣṇa’s presence in every aspect and in every moment of my life. You showed me His charisma, His wit and tricks. You showed me His wisdom, foresight and gumption. You showed me His love, affection and care. You made me feel totally enveloped with His gentle support and guidance, which gradually lead me to His Adobe as His eternal servant. You filled my heart with gratitude, with faith and hope. You filled up every single hole in it, making it capable to feel love and give back.
There is nothing in this world that can bend or break my firm faith in Kṛṣṇa and You, my dearest Gurudeva. Nothing can turn me away from You or from the path I’ve chosen. Nothing can withdraw my attention from the only desire I have – to be a Kṛṣṇa’s servant life after life after life and make You happy with every step I make.
Today, on the auspicious day of Your Appearance, I offer You my innumerable obeisances, wishing You to continue Your loving Mission in this world with all possible success and appreciation. I wish you to continue be a perfect, loving and profound guide for all Your disciples. I wish you to continue spreading The Holy Name with the same level of purity, sincerity and dedication that You constantly show by all Your actions and teachings.
Your insignificant,
Madhumayī Haripriyā devī dāsī (dīkṣa)
East of Kailash, New Delhi, India