nama oṁ viṣṇu-pādāya kṛṣṇa-preṣṭhāya bhū-tale
śrīmate jayapatāka svāmin iti nāmine
nama ācaryapādāya nitāi-kṛpā-pradāyine
gaura-kathā-dhāma-dāya nagara-grāma-tāriṇe
I beg to offer You my most respectful obeisances at You Divine lotus feet. All glories to His Divine Grace A.C. Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupāda and You.
Dear Gurudeva, today is the most auspicious day of Your Appearance. It says in the śāstra that prayers has four phrases and first and foremost we should glorify the divine personality. But if I want to see Your Divine qualities then it’s like an ant is trying to measure the sky through it’s that tine eyes. Your Divine qualities are unlimited as Kṛṣṇa’s and my material mind doesn’t have that capacity to even think of any particular quality to it’s highest extent. I beg to the dust of your lotus feet that in my stone like hard heart I can realize Your transcendental nature and can always think to please Your Divine Grace.
Kṛṣṇa attracts everyone and You as “abhinna-prakāśa” non different from Supreme Lord attract everyone. Your every quality is so attractive, and we want to be with you always. Dear Gurudeva, here in this material world everyone is trying to find some love, but no one gets satisfaction from the other person. But We get satisfied because Your Love and affection towards Your spiritual children are such that make us happiest. We didn’t see Kṛṣṇa or Lord Caitanya Mahāprabhu face to face but Your love makes us feel the same as spiritual unlimited love. Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu went to different houses in South India and they felt highest happiness, when You come to our place through Zoom we feel that kind of happiness. Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu embraced His associates and loved them most, here we see sometimes You just embrace You spiritual children and reciprocate like that. How fortunate they are, they get touched by your transcendental body and directly place their ears in Your most beautiful lotus like heart where Kṛṣṇa eternally reside, and it seems from there they only hear “Gaurāṅga!” “Gaurāṅga!” Your love and affection make us feel the Love of Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu which is unlimited and unended.
In this world we are fortunate souls that we get to know about Kṛṣṇa but one thing is we are most fortunate that we get to know about Gaurāṅga Mahāprabhu because it’s very very rare to know about Him and as You are mercy avatāra of Śrī Nityānanda Prabhu. So in same way You are spreading the glories of Śrīmān Mahāprabhu through Your classes, establishment of lotus footprints of Gaurāṅga Mahāprabhu and so on, in every possible way. Gurudeva I was in very bad condition of my life, from that hellish life You have taken me out and not only that it was unbelievable for someone like me to think that such a divine person like you will accept a fallen soul like me. I’m eternally indebted to you for accepting me. I’m eternally indebted to you for everything. I know better, now where I’m situated is not by my luck, it’s only and only your causeless mercy upon me. Please kindly bless me, this life which is given by you that I can use properly in your seva, in every possible way.
Gurudeva, I was thinking how fortunate I’m. I think I’m the most fortunate in the Whole universe. I never think of getting you as my spiritual master but Your causeless mercy has made impossible possible. I heard from the devotees how many times the situation was like life or death, when your throat was cut, when you went through transplantation surgery, then many things. You faced so much but Kṛṣṇa knows I have no other hope than You, I have no other than You, You are most merciful and I’m on the lowest stage. Therefore, You out of Your causeless mercy, stayed to deliver me. It says that the devas, they don’t get such opportunities of getting association of Nitya-siddha devotee of Lord. It’s very rare to have association of such devotees and I’m being no better than a demon, got the opportunity of getting Your blessings and association so closely. It’s beyond words to describe how fortunate I’m. Not only me, everyone of us are very very very fortunate to have You. And Hearing Lord Caitanya’s līlā from Your lotus mouth is something like most precious which even persons from higher planetary systems aspire for. Please kindly bless me to get drowned in the ocean of Your nectarine words of Lord’s glorification.
I was remembering that pastime of Lord Gaura Sundara and that dog. How Sivānanda Sena being a pure Vaiṣṇava was compassionate on that dog and finally that dog have got the mercy of Lord Caitanya. Like that, You are Lord’s associate and You are very compassionate on me but dog has got a quality that it is always very faithful to the master, but I have no qualification I want to be perfect but sometimes I couldn’t really control my senses. Knowingly or unknowingly, I offend Vaiṣṇavas and make mistakes. I beg You to forgive me and kindly bless me to become Your faithful dog.
Lord Caitanya Mahāprabhu and Lord Nityānanda Prabhu delivered most fallen souls like Jagāi Mādhāi, but Guru Mahārāja I’m even more fallen. Jagāi Mādhāi They promised for not to do any sinful act afterwards. But my lower nature is such that I’m habituated to do wrong. I beg for Your kṛpā and forgiveness for knowingly or unknowingly what I have done. I’m ashamed for my every act that maybe offensive or my bad behavior or maybe intentionally, unintentionally I have hurt devotees. Please kindly forgive me for everything. There’s no end of my list of offenses and no limit of your magnanimity.
I beg You please kindly bless me that, to be with You eternally and serve You. Please bless me to continue my services towards You and Lord without any break. Śrīla Guru Mahārāja I want to read Śrīla Prabhupāda’s books more and more. With Your blessings I’m trying hard for that and have a desire to get all the degrees. Although I’m good for nothing but You give me many opportunities of sevā and I’m grateful to You for all that!
Your insignificant servant,
Bhaktipriyā Rāi Devī Dāsī