nama oṁ viṣṇu-pādāya kṛṣṇa-preṣṭhāya bhū-tale
śrīmate jayapatāka svāmin iti nāmine
nama ācaryapādāya nitāi-kṛpā-pradāyine
gaura-kathā-dhāma-dāya nagara-grāma-tāriṇe
Hare Kṛṣṇa dear Guru Mahārāja,
Please accept my most respectful obeisances! All glories to Śrīla Prabhupāda! All glories unto Your Divine lotus feet!
Kṛṣṇa concludes His instructions to arjuna in Bhagavad-gītā to abandon all varieties of religion so HE will give protection, but due to my attachments I stand NO chance to get HIS mercy nor can comprehend HIS dealings with devotees. My next hope is Kṛṣṇa in the mood of Śrīmatī Rādhārāṇī - Śrīman Caitanya Mahāprabhu, who is the most merciful form of the Lord. HE first showers causeless mercy but keeps little tests later. But I am a big failure when it comes to HIS tests, My only HOPE is Lord Nityānanda who gives HIS mercy even to worst sinners. Gurudeva! You are nitāi-kṛpā-pradāyine, showering unlimited causeless mercy on this fallen soul. Without your mercy, it really scares me to think what would have been my plight. I do not have either sādhana or svadhyāya or sadācara or any Vaiṣṇava quality. JUST YOUR MERCY ALONE!
jogyatā-vicāre, kichu nāhi pāi,
tomāra karuṇā-sāra
Gurudeva! Last year you gave me second initiation. Which means, I am supposed to be more and more careful and responsible at every step in doing devotional service. Though I get your instructions through your dear servants, His Grace Caitanya Avatārī Prabhu and Her Grace Rasamayī Mātājī, but everyday, every minute it is a great struggle for me to overcome my ocean of anarthas. I sincerely wish to have that strong determination and commitment in following instructions.
On this 74th Vyāsa-pūjā day! I again pray at your lotus feet and pledge my allegiance to spread Śrīla Prabhupāda’s mission, for it pleases you the most. Please help us identify more positive souls and use us as instruments in preaching to them.
On this day, I pray for my daughters as well as my extended Bhakti-vṛkṣa family, so that by your mercy they can overcome all their anarthas which are holding them from surrendering to Śrīla Prabhupāda and Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu through Your Holiness.
Your Spiritual daughter,
Susevinī Guru Gaurāṅga Devī Dāsī
Minneapolis, Minnesota.