Respected Guru Mahārāja!!
Please accept my most humble obeisance!!! All glories to Your Divine Grace!! All glories too Śrīla Prabhupāda!!
On the auspicious occasion of your 74th Vyāsa-pūjā I pray to the Lord Narasiṁhadeva to protect you always and bless you with good health!!
Guru Mahārāja, you are always fulfilling Prabhupāda’s desire to deliver the Holy name around the world. Prabhupāda gave you such power, to spread Kṛṣṇa consciousness around the world, and you are fulfilling the desire of the Prabhupāda and Lord Caitanya Mahāprabhu. As He says in Caitanya-Bhāgavata:
‘pṛthivīte āche yata nagarādi grāma
sarvatra pracāra haibe mora nāma’
Your whole life is completely surrendered to these instructions to spread the Holy name to nuke and corner of the world, you want to elevate everyone to the path of pure devotional service. You are always been a inspiration for me, seeing you I always meditate how can I submit myself to your instructions and give my life for your pleasure as you have given your life to fulfill the desire of Śrīla Prabhupāda. If by your mercy I get little sincerity in my services I will feel myself fortunate.
On this Vyāsa-pūjā offering I want to reveal my mind to your lotus feet and hope and pray that I might overcome my shortcomings. Guru Mahārāja I am practicing my Kṛṣṇa consciousness from last 22 years and am so fortunate to have your association and unlimited mercy upon me. But today when I retrospect myself I feel very sorry that my mind is not becoming free from all dirt. Even though I know my devotional service is dependent on chanting of the Holy name and I try to chant in brāhma-muhūrata but focus on Holy name is not there, my mind is always distracted even though I try to make several effort.
I always hear from you that heart has to be soft for Kṛṣṇa to enter in the heart, but my heart is still very hard because of envious nature of mine and false ego. I heard several times from you that devotees should not find fault in others but somehow I am not able to control this habit.
I know the service to guru and Kṛṣṇa is only way for our progress in devotional service. I am also trying my level best to serve you and Śrīla Prabhupāda. It’s my only desire to serve you and please you, but when I see all the wonderful devotees around me and their dedication to serve and I feel I am so much lacking behind.
Today when I look back, I feel I have not made any progress in my devotional service, just wasted my life. If I keep talking about my faults it’s endless but Guru Mahārāja, I feel very scared will I be able to overcome all these faults before leaving my body? Will I be able to become a nice Vaiṣṇavī who can please you and Prabhupāda?
I know my complete spiritual life is dependent upon your mercy because the spiritual master is the representative of Supreme Lord and “By the mercy of the spiritual master one receives the benediction of Kṛṣṇa. Without the grace of the spiritual master one cannot make any advancement.” So on the auspicious occasion of your Vyāsa-pūjā, I approach you for your mercy.
yasya prasādād bhagavat-prasādo
yasyāprasādān na gatiḥ kuto 'pi
dhyāyan stuvaṁs tasya yaśas tri-sandhyaṁ
vande guroḥ śrī-caraṇāravindam
Dear Guru Mahārāja, I beg at your lotus feet to purify myself, please free me from the clutches of my evil mind and shower your unlimited mercy upon me so that I can serve Kṛṣṇa selflessly, I serve you selflessly, I serve the devotees selflessly and I serve the entire humanity selflessly. Please help me to overcome my anarthas and engage me in your service eternally.
Your servant insignificant servant,
Seva Padmā Devī Dāsī