Hare Krishna
Praṇāms Dear Guru Mahārāja!
Please accept my humble obesciences at the dust of your lotus feet.
We are greatly indebted to you for accepting us as your disciple. Nevertheless I am not all qualified for the same. It’s being one year that I had got initiated. We had started serving the Deities since 3 months.
Dear Guru Mahārāja, you are really a source of inspiration as you studies Bhakti-vaibhava at this age and reads Śrīmad-Bhāgavatam on daily basis.
We sincerely, pray for your good health, so that we always remain protected under you.
During the period, we may have committed so many mistakes knowingly and unknowingly. Being engaged in the thought of getting a good job and in that struggle many time there are days wherein I had chanted less number of rounds thinking that it will cover up next day. I am not able to concentrate in my scriptural studies. I missed my regular Bhāgvatam class. I skipped maṅgala-āratis. Though, I had faith in guru and Kṛṣṇa I had approached jyotis for knowing about my job.
But apart from all the above, I was always concerned about my Deities, taking care for their dressing and prasāda. My children and Prabhu helps me as well. I Had told my Deities that I will start on reading Śrīmad-Bhāgavatam for Them.
I often try but since after all my efforts could not land into a suitable job affect lot. My karma is there. I faced difficulty while joining small consultancy two months back. But this is continuously haunting me. What society will think? My-in-laws, children etc., We need bring both tracks side by side bhakti and job both. Then people will accept my path. Otherwise people cannot accept me. Even while writing this Vyāsa-pūjā homage I was distracted that I need to watch tutorials related to my profession. I also watch Facebook. I have not started preaching as promised to support you. But I had got now a small child coming to home, my daughter’s friend. I will, I fall down at the dust of your lotus feet to forgive me. I will regain everything.
Please bless our family Guru Mahārāja!