My dear Gurudeva,
Please accept my humble obeisances at your beautiful Lotus Feet,
All glories to Śrīla Prabhupāda! All glories to you, dear Gurudeva!
Your appearance day marks our good fortune. But I have been most unfortunate to have taken so long to actually realize the mercy you have always showered on me. Being blind to your love, it took me very long to see you as my Spiritual Father.
Long back when I joined ISKCON, Śrīla Prabhupāda was all I knew, through reading Śrīla Prabhupāda Līlāmṛta and other books. Being so conditioned and fallen, I failed to see who had brought Śrīla Prabhupāda in my life.
Before you mercifully accepted me as your Spiritual daughter, the day I took aspiring, I wanted to know my Spiritual Father’s attachment to Śrīla Prabhupāda (I am now so ashamed at my audacity).
But no less than a miracle, the next day you started taking Śrīla Prabhupāda līlā classes which went on for quite a few days at stretch. I was put to shame - A tiny little ant trying to estimate the strength of an associate of the Lord Caitanya.
You did not need to reciprocate with my foolish challenge, but you are so very humble. Who can understand your heart?
I am ashamed I have never been able to serve you in any capacity, have never been able to reciprocate the love you have always showered on me as a very patient loving father.
I pray to Lord Nityānanda to give me strength that I may serve you, my Spiritual father, life after life after life. Your presence in my life, identity of being your spiritual daughter is the identity I wish to have till eternity. But having that identity, I wish to justify it.
I seek your blessings that I can be your good daughter and help you at least in some capacity to serve Śrīla Prabhupāda and Śrī Gaurāṅga.
Praying to Lord Narasiṁhadeva to give a very healthy, long life to Your Holiness.
Your muddle headed daughter,
Ratipradā Rādhikā Devī Dāsī
P.S. - Attaching a letter from Śrīla Prabhupāda to Your Holiness, where he mentions how whole world would be charmed by Your transcendental activities. It was a prophecy made by Śrīla Prabhupāda
