namo om vishu paday krishna pristhaya bhutale srimate jayapataka swami iti namine
namo acharya padaya nitai kripa pradayine gaur katha dhama daya nagar gram tarine
My Dear Spiritual Master Please accept my humble obeisences. Happy to observe your Vyasa puja today, most awaited day in Disciples life. Being a conditioned soul possessing qualities which are tented with three modes of material nature it becomes very difficult for me to glorify souls like yours who apparently stand in material world but solely belong to spiritual realm. so I hope you accept my broken words in your glorification.
It’s been more than one and half year that I have begun serving you personally. It’s been a cloud time in terms of my Spiritual nourishment and anecdotes of your pastimes. I used to read about personal servants of Prabhupada, their pastimes with His Divine Grace and sometime dream to have such a good fortune to closely associate with you and have a preview of How a pure devotee behaves in given circumstances. Krishna by his kind nature has allowed me to serve you personally. It has been a wonderful era of my existence and I continue to aspire for this chance for eternity to come.
First of all I would beg your pardon for mistakes, blunders and offences committed so far and beg your guidence and prayers to avoid such nuisance. Your glorification shall bring forth my purification , I mean I shall truly be your disciple (disciplined and abided by your instructions)and not just a phony initiate. I desire and dream to represent you in every walk of my life.
Here I would like to shed some light on your day to day activities and my take away from them. I have been seeing you in a description of a
trinadapi sunichena taror eva sahisnuna
amanina man dena kirtaniya sada hari
Lord Caitanya tells us 'if someone wants to chant constant harinam he should seek a position of being more tolerant than a tree, Humbler than a blade of grass, should offer respect to everyone and expect nothing in return'. I had been observing your life and it’s so fits you. Never saw you getting angry, upset on person on flip side when you apparently showed your angriness it had brought those souls more closely than ever. You are a humble vaisnava - I remember Srinathji prabhu was glorifying you and when you came back to your room you said "it was humiliating". what Srinathji prabhu said was perfectly alright, truth, illustrating your hard work to build Sridham Mayapur and Prabhupadas statement on you as being a associate of Caitanya Mahaprabhu. But you have never been a person, who like to hear about himself rather you go on glorifying Guru and Gauranga through your mind, body and words. Thank you so much for encouraging me to take up to this verses purports.
Nowadays most quoted song in your lectures- Param karuna bahu dui dana Nitai Gaurchandra. Many times it takes you to ecstasy, relishing such many vaisnava songs on the highest level of its understanding- Realising and experiencing those emotions. You also hear Srila Prabhupada lecture during morning hours. Sometime you also share Prabhupada words through social media. in particular when we are in Mayapur every night you hear Gaur katha having read aloud. Chanting day in day out, during daily correspondence you always tell your Krishna conscious wisdom. taking Daily deity darshan, When your health checks on you, you still are present in festivals through Mayapur.tv. Giving lectures from hospital room, attending meeting, weekly TOVP exhibit meeting, extensive travelling, pacifying all sorts of disciples, managers, temples, yatras etc. Eating merely, Sleeping hardly, and serving tirelessly. Your life is a window to the spiritual world. I can imagine how unstoppably devotees must be serving Krishna.
I come to think of some of your anecdotes. Once we were in Bhakti vedanta Hospital rushing towards Chennai as it was an emergency situation, your both hands were having cannulas on them. you prayed to Prabhupada at ground floor and started towards your vehicle. you were weak physically so hardly could lift your legs and manage to get into a car, while four of us tried to put you safely on your seat you saw one local devotee and said "Is there anyone here for shelter", when I heard that I was completely blown away. I couldn’t understand that there is no limit to your magnanimity, on same theme I am able to recollect few more incidences I would like to share one more of them. This time we were in Kuala lumpur having you to be tapped of ascites fluid, they had drained about 11 liters, catheter was out and procedure hole was closed by kind of tape which somehow or other was not sufficient or there was sudden excess moment performed right after procedure. It started leaking through with quite a big stream when you were standing. Now here is a point it was a terrific to see, fluid coming out of belly without having doctors intervene and you started singing Hare Krishna Mahamantra. And again this time too I was mesmerized by your greatness. I just wish to serve you throughout my existence, what else will weigh more than service rendered to your holiness. You just do minimum to keep body and soul together and rest is only 'How to expand the ways and means to serve Srila Prabhupada '
There is a verse in Caitanya Bhagavata which states,
tomar ki katha tomar gramer kukur |
sei mor priya anya jan rahu dur ||
Even a dog in the village of Gunaraj khan was loved by lord Caitanya as he was a pure devotee of Krishna, just because a dog had a fortune of living in a village where in Gunraj khan lived, sambandha kripa. Similar is my situation though I am beside you physically but hardly ever have come to know about such a great chance to rip benefits from association. Recently your health had been deteriorating a lot. You still continue to represent Lord Nityananda's mercy. Health team is figuring out and praying to Krishna for a way forward, many devotees praying for your wellbeing. You also expressed your desire to come out of these physical problems and serve Prabhupada on greater scale. I have prayed and will continue to pray to Lord Narasimhadeva for your speedy recovery.
Your Servant Always
Akarsaka Caitanya Dasa (Diksa),
Mayapur, India