My Dear Gurudeva,
Please accept my humble obeisances. All glories to Srila Prabhupada. All glories to Sri Guru and Gauranga.
my sincere apologies for writing my apologies on the day of Vyasa Puja. I was supposed to be earlier but nevertheless it wasn't too late.
I was very happy to serve your holiness in your office. But, recently I took some other services in Mayapur temple to serve as CSR manager to help Mayapur to get fund from corporate companies to support our projects including hospital, school and master plan projects.
I had all reason to complain to stay in your office but whenever I see your tolerance to your disciples and others, I always wonder how is that possible!
I handled many of your initiation programs during last 20 months. I did my services very sincerely and I hope that my services has pleased all in the office including Acintya Caintanya Prabhu, Bhadra Balaram Prabhu and Ramananda Gaura Prabhu. But, I am not sure whether I pleased your lotus feet or not.
On vyasa puja eve, I got the opportunity to meet you personally and I think I was so fortunate to have personal time with you but I was the most unfortunate to use that time to complain about so many things. From that meeting, I understand how you care for your disciples and how you treat your disciples with utmost care.
I was not compentent enough to meet you personally but your holiness is so merciful with me. Finally, at the end of the meeting, I requested you bless me but you gave big hug to show your completely mercy upon me. It was an emotional time for me. It was moment for em cherish throughout my life.
I beg forgiveness from your holiness if I had committed any offences at your lotus feet knowingly or unknowingly. I am sure as a father you will forgive your sons mistakes.
I am sure, I will continue to help initiation department wherever possible and with utmost care I will try to serve CSR as well.
Gurumaharaj, I need your blessings to be at your service and to be in Mayapur. Pls bless me profusely so that I remain a humble servant at your lotus feet.
your insignificant spiritual son
Pavana Gauraprema Das
1st April 2023, Mayapur.