nama oṁ viṣṇu-pādāya kṛṣṇa-preṣṭhāya bhū-tale
śrīmate jayapatāka svāmin iti nāmine
nama ācaryapādāya nitāi-kṛpā-pradāyine
gaura-kathā-dhāma-dāya nagara-grāma-tāriṇe
Dear beloved Guru Mahārāja,
Please accept my respectable obeisances! All glories to Śrīla Prabhupāda! All glories to Śrī Gaurāṇga and Śrī Nityānanda! All glories to your auspicious appearance day!
Never like before have I realized how infinitely grateful I am to you for allowing me to take refuge at your lotus feet. You stood by me when, last summer, I almost failed to pass what was perhaps the greatest test that Kṛṣṇa mercifully sent me and that ONLY thanks to you I passed! Only you know how difficult it was for me and how much I was in trouble, but you immediately came to my aid, as if you already knew what was happening and thus saved me once again, bringing me back to your lotus feet. My love for you and for Śrīla Prabhupāda grew immeasurably in that moment, as if that test passed made me take a leap forward, freeing my heart and mind from the thin strings that were keeping me tied to one of the many illusions by māyā. I realized how much Śrīla Prabhupāda's teachings are a gift from Kṛṣṇa to me, but the greatest GIFT, the brightest LIGHT, was receiving YOU as a spiritual father directly from the Supreme Lord.
I am aware that I have caused you suffering by failing in my responsibility towards you and for this reason this whole life will not be sufficient to repair the suffering I have caused you.
I am here, prostrate at your lotus feet, thanking you eternally for your infinite love and compassion towards a lost soul like me, thanking you for the example you are giving me of constant determination in devotional service aimed at fulfilling your beloved master Śrīla Prabhupāda, teaching that the difficulties of life, be they diseases of the body, mind or from society, cannot stop Lord Caitanya's mission. You are the sublime example of the servant of the Lord, the realized soul who has transcended māyā, passing with great courage and determination all the tests that the infinitely merciful Kṛṣṇa had planned for you.
Thank Lord Nṛsiṁhadeva for donating me such a spiritual father!
Your eternal and always grateful servant
Mohinī-Rānī Devī Dasī
(Dikśa disciple, Sicily, Italy)