Hare Kṛṣṇa
My Respectable Spiritual Father His Holiness Jayapatākā Swami Guru Mahārāja
Please Accept my humble and respectful obeisance on you lotus feet.
All Glorious To Śrīla Prabhupāda
All Glorious To Your unlimited mercy
Niati Gaurāṅga Ki Jay
Father, I am the cause of all your illness.
Bhakti Lata Seed was first revealed in the heart at your mercy.I got everything from your lotus feet shelter.
But father, I am responsible for all your troubles today. My dear father I have received everything I asked from you. I didn't want anything from my worldly parents, I wanted everything from you and you always gave me my wishes. I remember at the end of 2022 I made a vow to you every day I went to you and told you that I wanted this I knew it was not good for me and I asked you for it again and again until finally you gave it to me and one day I realized that it really was. It wasn't right for me so you didn't want to give it to me. But my earnestness was such that you gave it to me. And later explained to me that this was not right for me. Father you have always given me everything, you have always been with me and are here to protect me. But father, I always avoid you, I don't obey your words, I don't follow your advice. Sometimes I try to evade you through ignorance. Father today you are very sick and suffering a lot. But day by day I am a burden for you. You are taking away all my sins. I cannot be your worthy disciple. I am the cause of all your sufferings and illnesses. I am I am the one who hurts my father again and again. Father, even if I surrender my entire life to your feet, I have nothing to repay you. My father, please forgive me this disobedient son of yours.
It is very difficult to get you father. I think why I was born so late. If I had been born earlier, I would have been close to you. I could be with you.
However, Father, I have never seen an ocean of mercy like yours.
Immerse me greatly in Your mercy, Father.
I want to be in you.
You are my everything, father
Your vile child
Sourav Das
From:- Habiganj, Sylhet, Bangledesh.