My Dear Śrīla Jaya Pataka Swami Guru Mahārāja.
Hare Kṛṣṇa. I beg to offer my prostate humble obeisance’s to your divine feet. In the celebration of the “75th Śrī Vyāsa-pūjāMahotsava” of my beloved Guru Mahārāja, I would like to offer my sincere gratitude for your matchless gift for everything.
In Satya Yuga: Devotees would reside in the upper planets and demons would live in the lower infernos.
Tretā Yuga: Devotees and demons were in the same planet but different countries. Particularly, Lord Rāma and his devotees were in India and Ravana was in the Srilanka.
Dvāpara Yuga: Devotees are Demons were in the same dynasty but different families. Lord Kṛṣṇa’s devotees Pañca-Paṇḍava and demons like the family of Dhṛtarāṣṭra Duryodhana etc. The days were going, devotees and demons were coming so closer to each other accordingly.
Kali Yuga: Mode of devotees and demons have entered into the same person. Lord Kṛṣṇa Says in Bhagavad-gītā 4.8 Verse that “paritranaya sadhunam vinashaya cha dushkritam, dharma-sansthapanarthaya sambhavami yuge yuge”
Translation: To protect the righteous, to annihilate the wicked, and to reestablish the principles of dharma I appear on this earth, age after age. If Kṛṣṇa would Vanish the wicked in the kali yoga, 100% destruction would occur because both the devotees and demon’s mentality lie inside the same person. Therefore, Lord Kṛṣṇa changed the mode of Him and appeared as Lord Caitanya Mahāprabhu and predicted that “hate astra na dhoribo prane karo na marivo chitto shuddhi ghotaibo sobar” In lieu of taking any weapon to destroy and giving mental stress, I will deliver everyone by one powerful medicine called “yuga dharma mahā harināma saṅkīrtana”
There are so many people in this world who are not practicing devotional life yet. My dear Guru Mahārāja, By your causeless mercy, I have got this auspicious opportunity to lead a devotional life from early childhood. This most merciful life is none but your precious Gift. Since you are my eternal spiritual father, therefore as your insignificant daughter, I would like to share my sorrowful story so that my upcoming becomes more shining and highly prosperous in material and spiritual perspectives. “tomaro carane asiyachi ami bolibo dukkhero kotha”
My Life is totally Your, s Guru Mahārāja
Gurudeva, you have given me everything to come and contact with Guru and Gaurāṅga all the time. Throughout my initiation process, you have nourished my life by practicing Vaidhi Bhakti “ājñā dila more, ei braje bosi’, hari-nāma koro gāna”. I want to practice more and more to purify myself and to enlighten surroundings. But, There are numerous noxious incidences happened in my life which bounded myself almost to leave devotional life and even to destroy this precious human form of life.
In my father’s house, unlimited excruciated by my mom and after marriage, my husband who is the another embodiment of mom to torture my physically, mentally and emotionally. Today, I will share one with you. Although, my mom has tortured me brutally from the beginning of my devotional services, this incidence had crossed the limit of everything. Since husband has uprooted me and my daughter from home, I took shelter to my parent’s residence which was intolerable to my mom. Her truculent torment and anguish order was to extirpate from there with my daughter as early as possible. I was totally destitute and can’t decide what should be done to survive. As a consequence, I took one final decision that if I commit suicide, everything will be solved. I was entirely bewildered by mentally and emotionally but the decision was final. Everything was fully ready. Before committing suicide, last time, I wanted to take your darśana, Guru Mahārāja. You saved me Gurudeva, Saved me through your Vāṇī Seva. You were delivering lecture in the Narasiṁha caturdaśī Day in the morning session. Gurudeva, You were instructing me ultimately that my dear Spiritual daughter, If a devotee commit suicide, they will be Brahma daiyta (Demon). I do not want any Brahma daiyta, I want Vaiṣṇava (Pure devotee). A devotee should not commit any suicide if there are unlimited troublesome and intolerable situation which rejuvenated my consciousness into proper Kṛṣṇa consciousness and decision altered in 180 degree angle instantly. If I would not start the live class, I would be definitely Brahma daiyta but you have gifted me this blissful life. Therefore, I would like to say that you are my transcendental spiritual father and this life is totally gifted by you, Guru Mahārāja.
My Cherished Dream
Since, this life has been protected by your vāṇī, I want to preach your Vāṇī Seva around the world more widely and more wisely as well as I want to establish so many ISKCON temples and preaching centers so that all classes of people can take advantages for nourishing their devotional life. “śakti buddhi hino, ami ati dina, koro more ātmā satho”
Again, I aam begging apology for my disability and seeking endless compassion with soul-mate so that I can fulfill my given commitments meticulously.
The Most negligible Spiritual Daughter
Jayadā Kālindī Devī Dāsī.
