nama oṁ viṣṇu-pādāya kṛṣṇa-preṣṭhāya bhū-tale
śrīmate jayapatāka svāmin iti nāmine
nama ācaryapādāya nitāi-kṛpā-pradāyine
gaura-kathā-dhāma-dāya nagara-grāma-tāriṇe
nama oṁ viṣṇu-pādāya kṛṣṇa-preṣṭhāya bhū-tale
śrīmate bhaktivedānta-svāmin iti nāmine
namas te sārasvate deve gaura-vāṇī-pracāriṇe
nirviśeṣa-śūnyavādi-pāścātya-deśa-tāriṇe
Hare Kṛṣṇa Dear Guru Mahārāja,
Please accept my respectful obeisances unto Your lotus feet. All Glories to Śrīla Prabhupāda! All Glories to You! All glories to Your Vyāsa-pūjā!
Guru Mahārāja, last year in May You came to Minnesota to bless all of us and at that time You mercifully accepted me along with my parents as Your spiritual children by giving us initiation. Since then I have wondered countless times as to what qualification I have to receive Your shelter and mercy and so far, I have come up empty. A few days back I was reading Your pastime of meeting Your dear disciple His Grace Kṛpāmūrti Kṛṣṇa Prabhujī for the first time since 2009. That is when I realized what a guru’s mercy is. I was also listening from Her Grace Nitāi Sevinī Mātājī about Your pastime in which You tell the Sanskrit scholar that You are willing to take on the karma of not just Your disciples but the whole world. These are just a few instances where I have realized but a drop of Your mercy. And finally, me - You accepted me, who has no good qualities but is an ocean of anarthas, as Your disciple and have been showering Your mercy upon me not just in the last few years but all through my life (even other lifetimes, but I don’t remember them).
I remember that in March, 2023 I had asked blessings from His Grace Caitanya Avatārī Prabhujī that I should be able to surrender unto Your lotus feet and in less than 2.5 months after that incident, You had accepted me as Your disciple even though I am totally unqualified. This, I suppose, is guru’s mercy. You are Nitāi Kṛpā Pradāyine - looking at the mood that You carry to fulfill Śrīla Prabhupāda’s mission, to preach, to deliver the fallen souls and to give Kṛṣṇa to as many people possible, it makes it a little easier to fathom the mercy of Śrīla Prabhupāda and the previous ācāryas.
By Your blessings, O Gurudeva, I hope to someday be able to serve You under the guidance of my sīkṣā-gurus His Grace Amānī Gauracandra Prabhujī, Her Grace Susevinī Guru Gaurāṅgī Mātājī, His Grace Caitanya Avatārī Prabhujī and Her Grace Rasamayī Mātājī. If I can develop even 0.001% of the guru-niṣṭhā that my sīkṣā-gurus have for You and their service attitude towards You I will consider my life fulfilled.
I only hope to be able to serve You someday as You are serving Śrīla Prabhupāda and my sīkṣā-gurus are serving You. I am certain that by Your mercy I will be able to get closer to my goal and will be able to make my human life worthwhile by pleasing You. I am a worthless soul who is constantly failing the tests of Māyā and ignoring Kṛṣṇa but by Your mercy I have some hope. If it so pleases You, O Spiritual Father, please show me a little more mercy by guiding me on the correct path in order to serve You and give me the intelligence to engage all those around me - my family, friends and relatives- in Your service. Please bless my family - my mother, father, brother and sister- so that we may continue to serve You for many more years to come and may engage more and more souls in Your service. If You so desire, please also bless all the kids that are in my Jagannath Pathashala along with their families so that they may take up to Kṛṣṇa consciousness. All in all Guru Mahārāja, please let me engage in Your service in order to please You.
Your spiritual daughter,
Tulasī Dayāmayī Devī Dāsī