Name: Giteshvari Vishnupriya dd
City:New Delhi
Country:India
Initiated On : 1st April 2015
In: SRI DHAM MAYAPUR
HARE KRISHNA
All Glories to Srila Prabhupada
All Glories to Sri Guru and GAURANGA
All All All Glories to You Dear Gurumaharaj
Namaah Om Vishnu Padaya Krishna Prishthaya Bhutale Srimate Jayapataka Swami Iti Naamine Namoh Acharya Padaya Nitai Kripa Pradaayine GAURA Katha DAMO Daya Nagaro Gramo Taarine
Please accept my heartfelt respectful obeisances at Your Lotus Feet Dear Gurumaharaj
Beloved Spiritual Father ..
I wish You and myself a very blessed Vyaas Puja.I Thank Your Holiness to be present on Mother Earth bearing innumerable pains and sufferings just so that I and many like me can receive Your loving mercy and try to aim going back to Godhead.Just by Your Darshan and assiciation.. i do not know how many mountains of sins KRISHNA must be removing from my destiny.Your existence for sake of us ...the purity of Your devotion and sadhana is destroying uncalculated sins i have committed.I am grateful to You for Your mercy and though being unworthy of having You as my spiritual master....You still accepted me and are giving out causeless mercy at every step and every day of my life.
Dearest Beloved Gurumaharaj
When I look at Your simplest day to day actions...I only learn n observe humbleness and unconditional love pouring for me.The quality of never criticising anyone ...infact not even a non living thing...is what I have always observed from You.This is so difficult and austere.At this point n many more...i realise the 3rd offence to be avoided during Chanting "to disobey the orders of Spiritual Master or to consider the Spiritual Master to be an ordinary person" To not criticize something...someone...some situation is so very austere...which i immediately and easily do it.Its a great austerity.
I wish to GOD I can imbibe in me particularly this quality from You from the many millions of other qualities You possess.I am learning and want to get these values from Your Holiness my Spiritual Father.I am only understanding and realising how much disciplined life of austerity you follow.
After Chanting and finishing all my prayers and sankalpa prayers....I have a habit to watch videos of infant babies...I randomly came across 1 video of You whildt browsing....This video hit me very hard n straight pierced through my heart.I had tears in my eyes when I saw n listened to it.I watched it again n again...many times
In the video I see you are in not good health...almost half of your body weight shedded away...this video was probably before 2016 when the major transplant happened.You said if there is anybody who has done any offense to me... accidentally... knowingly or unknowingly...i pray to KRISHNA to forgive you all.I pray to LORD to bless you taste for Chanting and devotional service to HIM. This made me cry.
How much more merciful can one be than You Dear Gurumaharaj.Here I am hurting You n harming by speaking small small lies...doing offences to Vaishnavs...not Chanting attentively many n most times... criticising people,situations,everyone..
following the regulatory principles...but also breaking them in subtle ways...all knowing that this will harm my Dear Gurumaharaj...n still committing these apradhs...n here I see You with selfless flowing love and mercy.You are merciful than even KRISHNA.Even HE doesn't have this great heart as big as You have.
I saw that video again n again...don't know how many times n also saved n shared this video with Kairava Chandrika so that we can see it again n again n again n again..n again...n remind ourselves to at least try to make ourselves worthy of having You as our Spiritual Master
You will not be happy with me but even right now when I am writing this year's glorification to You..just the previous night I again spoke lies to the Train tt coach.
Here again a miracle happened which You do to save Your disciples.This miracle is again one of the innumerous ones happening in my day to day life where I seek Your shelter n protection after making blunders.I confess to You this incident...but I am learning to correct myself and work towards being a better disciple
I am travelling from Delhi to Udaipur back to back since 2 nights 2 days at a stretch for 3 destination weddings clashing with one another.Due to this Mamma n myself had to split into these 2 cities to take care of work
The flight prices had soared...n no confirm railway tickets available anymore coz it's same day travelling
I could not get a confirm railway ticket n the only way I had was to travel on a confirm seat but in someones else's name.The person was from my team itself n she stayed in Udaipur to continue working here....n I took her adhar card n travelled in the train on her ticket .When tt came for checking...he found out.The penalty for the 2Ac ticket charge + penalty for not having my own name ticket was amounting to approximately 7000Rs I was prepared to pay the penalty as has no choice to reach on time next day...
But I dint even think at that time...that this will cause harm to You...coz in a way...it was a lie...but I still did it.Now the tt was also angry n I did not have the courage to speak to him.At that time i started praying to You.I recited Your pranaam mantra and begged for forgiveness for this sin.
The man sitting next to me... assured me to not panic n said let him have a word with the tt.He tried to speak wid him n sort it out..My prayers to You were getting intense ....I feared due to the blunder...n what if he doesn't let me travel on that confirm seat.The man n tt had long time conversation...The tt came out to belong from the man's own Rajasthani community...same caste...they called it some Meena caste....tt got pacified after the man's interference.He took Rs 500 only n let me travel on same ticket.I am embarassed to share this wid You knowing what You would think of me for lying ...but I realised that day I must avoid even slightest of lies as they are harming You.Causing You bad health.I ask You for forgiveness.Your mercy is so tremendously live n always with me...You are always saving Your disciples...n teaching them to correct themselves where we are going wrong
Last Vyaas Puja offering i had shared with Your Holiness that we are preparing for a surprise for You on the 1st day of PURUSHOTTAM Month on 18July 2023.
We regret and apologize that it could not happen.I pray to You for Your causeless mercy to allow myself Kairava Chandrika Mummy and Papa to present this surprise for You
We need Your mercy to let that happen.We pray to You to make it happen in May 2026 the coming next PURUSHOTTAM Month.Without Your mercy....nothing is possible.
Dear Gurumaharaj...Thank You for finding me and accepting me.You know everything...my flaws and my faults.I sincerely want to become a good disciple and want to serve You.By serving You i experience true happiness.Please engage me in Your service and I do everything that pleases You.Many many Gratitudes to You.Thank You
Your undeserving servant and daughter
Giteshvari Vishnupriya dd