Name: Giteshvari Vishnupriya dd
City:New Delhi
Country:India
Initiated On: 1st April 2015
In: ŚRĪ DHAM MĀYĀPUR
HARE KṚṢṆA!
All Glories to Śrīla Prabhupāda! All Glories to Śrī Guru and Gaurāṅga! All All All Glories to You Dear Guru Mahārāja!
nama oṁ viṣṇu-pādāya kṛṣṇa-preṣṭhāya bhū-tale
śrīmate jayapatāka svāmin iti nāmine
nama ācaryapādāya nitāi-kṛpā-pradāyine
gaura-kathā-dhāma-dāya nagara-grāma-tāriṇe
Please accept my heartfelt respectful obeisances at Your Lotus Feet Dear Guru Mahārāja.
Beloved Spiritual Father,
I wish You and myself a very blessed Vyāsa-pūjā. I thank Your Holiness to be present on Mother Earth bearing innumerable pains and sufferings just so that I and many like me can receive Your loving mercy and try to aim going back to Godhead. Just by Your darśana and association. I do not know how many mountains of sins KṚṢṆA must be removing from my destiny. Your existence for sake of us. . . the purity of Your devotion and sādhana is destroying uncalculated sins I have committed. I am grateful to You for Your mercy and though being unworthy of having You as my spiritual master. . . You still accepted me and are giving out causeless mercy at every step and every day of my life.
Dearest Beloved Guru Mahārāja
When I look at Your simplest day to day actions. . . I only learn n observe humbleness and unconditional love pouring for me. The quality of never criticizing anyone. . . in fact not even a non-living thing. . . is what I have always observed from You. This is so difficult and austere. At this point and many more. . . I realize the 3rd offence to be avoided during Chanting “to disobey the orders of Spiritual Master or to consider the Spiritual Master to be an ordinary person” To not criticize something. . . someone. . . some situation is so very austere. . . which I immediately and easily do it. It’s a great austerity.
I wish to GOD, I can imbibe in me particularly this quality from You from the many millions of other qualities You possess. I am learning and want to get these values from Your Holiness my Spiritual Father. I am only understanding and realizing how much disciplined life of austerity you follow.
After chanting and finishing all my prayers and saṅkalpa prayers. . . I have a habit to watch videos of infant babies. . . I randomly came across a video of You while browsing. . . This video hit me very hard and straight pierced through my heart. I had tears in my eyes when I saw n listened to it. I watched it again and again. . . many times.
In the video I see you are in not good health. . . almost half of your body weight shed away… this video was probably before 2016 when the major transplant happened. You said if there is anybody who has done any offense to me. . . accidentally. . . knowingly or unknowingly. . . I pray to KṚṢṆA to forgive you all. I pray to LORD to bless you taste for Chanting and devotional service to HIM. This made me cry.
How much more merciful can one be than You Dear Guru Mahārāja. Here, I am hurting You and harming by speaking small, small lies. . . doing offences to Vaiṣṇavas. . . not chanting attentively many and most times. . . criticizing people, situations, everyone.
Following the regulatory principles. . . but also breaking them in subtle ways. . . all knowing that this will harm my Dear Guru Mahārāja. . . And still committing these aprādhas. . . And here I see You with selfless flowing love and mercy. You are merciful than even KṚṢṆA. Even He doesn’t have this great heart as big as You have.
I saw that video again and again. . . don’t know how many times and also saved and shared this video with Kairava Candrika so that we can see it again and again and again and again, and again. . . and remind ourselves to at least try to make ourselves worthy of having You as our Spiritual Master.
You will not be happy with me but even right now when I am writing this year’s glorification to You. Just the previous night I again spoke lies to the Train TT coach.
Here again a miracle happened which You do to save Your disciples. This miracle is again one of the innumerous ones happening in my day to day life where I seek Your shelter n protection after making blunders. I confess to You this incident. . . but I am learning to correct myself and work towards being a better disciple.
I am travelling from Delhi to Udaipur back to back since 2 nights 2 days at a stretch for 3 destination weddings clashing with one another. Due to this Mamma n myself had to split into these 2 cities to take care of work.
The flight prices had soared. . . And no confirm railway tickets available anymore coz it’s same day travelling
I could not get a confirm railway ticket n the only way I had was to travel on a confirm seat but in someone else’s name. The person was from my team itself n she stayed in Udaipur to continue working here. . . . And I took her aadhar card and travelled in the train on her ticket. When TT came for checking. . . he found out. The penalty for the 2Ac ticket charge + penalty for not having my own name ticket was amounting to approximately 7000 Rs I was prepared to pay the penalty as has no choice to reach on time next day. . .
But I dint even think at that time. . . that this will cause harm to You. . . Because in a way. . . it was a lie. . . but I still did it. Now the TT was also angry and I did not have the courage to speak to him. At that time I started praying to You. I recited Your praṇāma-mantra and begged for forgiveness for this sin.
The man sitting next to me. . . assured me to not panic and said let him have a word with the TT. He tried to speak with him and sort it out. My prayers to You were getting intense. . . I feared due to the blunder. . . And what if he doesn’t let me travel on that confirm seat. The man and TT had long time conversation. . . The TT came out to belong from the man’s own Rajasthani community. . . same caste. . . they called it some Meena caste. . . . TT got pacified after the man’s interference. He took Rs 500 only and let me travel on same ticket. I am embarrassed to share this with You knowing what You would think of me for lying. . . but I realized that day I must avoid even slightest of lies as they are harming You. Causing You bad health. I ask You for forgiveness. Your mercy is so tremendously live n always with me. . . You are always saving Your disciples. . . And teaching them to correct themselves where we are going wrong.
Last Vyāsa-pūjā offering I had shared with Your Holiness that we are preparing for a surprise for You on the 1st day of PURUṢOTTAMA Month on 18July 2023.
We regret and apologize that it could not happen. I pray to You for Your causeless mercy to allow myself Kairava Candrikā Mummy and Papa to present this surprise for You.
We need Your mercy to let that happen. We pray to You to make it happen in May 2026 the coming next PURUṢOTTAMA Month. Without Your mercy. . . nothing is possible.
Dear Guru Mahārāja. . . Thank You for finding me and accepting me. You know everything. . . my flaws and my faults. I sincerely want to become a good disciple and want to serve You. By serving You I experience true happiness. Please engage me in Your service and I do everything that pleases You. Many many gratitude to You. Thank You!
Your undeserving servant and daughter,
Gīteśvarī Viṣṇupriyā Devī Dāsī