Hare Kṛṣṇa dear Guru Mahārāja
Please accept my respectful obeisances onto your lotus feet.
Happy 75th Vyāsa-pūjā to you Guru Mahārāja.
Every year, I actually wait for this day to come to write my heartfelt gratitude offering letter to you. Although I know you are there with me and always answer my doubt and give me your kind guidance whenever I need it through different means. I also try to hear your lectures regularly which actually clears most of my doubt whether related to spiritual life, personal life or any concept of scriptures.
Around the time of Nityānanda Trayodaśī, I was listening to you the famous pastime of the deliverance of Jagāi Mādhāi. There you mentioned that even though Nitāi was bleeding when Mādhai hit him with a broken pot of liquor, but then also he wants to give mercy of Caitanya Mahāprabhu to them anyhow. So I was contemplating, how you are also in the same mood of Nitāi’s compassion (as your Praṇāma Mantra clearly states “Nitāi-kṛpā pradāyine”), even though being your disciple and follower, we are continuously doing many offences which actually affecting your health, because of us you have to suffer more and more Guru Mahārāja, but then also you are so compassionate that you go to any extent to spread the message of Caitanya Mahāprabhu to the conditioned souls. On 8th March you mentioned in the class that you are not feeling well and maybe because of too much tiredness you can’t read and hear properly, but then also you gave class on Caitanya Śikṣāmṛta that shows your Love for Gaurahari and service attitude towards your spiritual master His divine Grace A. C. Bhaktivedanta swami Prabhupāda. Your these valuable classes are like my protecting armor against the attack of Māyā.
You are the true ācārya who actually shows by his example, you mention in the class to read Prabhupāda’s books and get degrees, not only that you say but you already got your Bhakti-vedānta degree on 7th March and looking forward to doing Bhakti-Sārbavauma course to set up an standard, by not accepting any honorary degrees from ISKCON board of examinations being a Initiating guru. So for your pleasure I also did my Bhakta-śāstrī course from ISKCON Habibpur, under the guidance of His Grace Gopīkānta Prabhu, MI teacher (online mode). And now I am looking forward to enrolling in the Bhakti-vaibhava course, please bless me so that I could do this course with service mood to please guru-paramparā and whatever intellect I gain after doing these courses may I use those in spreading the message of Kṛṣṇa consciousness to whoever I come across.
Guru Mahārāja, you put so much importance in caring for devotees and cooperating among each other. But I find myself being so much affected by Kali (kalaḥ), that in every place I argue by finding faults. May this nature of mine subsides with time and I only see good in others so that I could chant blissfully, and my offences will go away.
Guru Mahārāja, I am eternally indebted to you, and I really want to serve you, please you. You mentioned in class that disciples can repay the debt of his Guru Mahārāja by following his instructions of spreading Kṛṣṇa consciousness, but I find myself insignificant in this regard and can’t see any way to use all my potential in this service. I pray to you so that you make me your puppet and do whatever you want in this regard. I would be happy to become an instrument of your hand to please guru-paramparā and Caitanya Mahāprabhu.
I Pray to Narasiṁhadeva every day, if He wants and He becomes pleased then may He keep you in good health and give you a long Life.
Jaya Patita-pāvana Guru Mahārāja,
Jaya Śrīla Prabhupāda,
Your Fool Daughter,
Puṣparāṇī Rādhikā Devī Dāsī (Dīkṣā)
Murshidabad, WB, India