Śrīla Prabhupāda kī jaya!
Śrīla Patita-pāvana Guru Mahārāja kī jaya!
My Dear Guru Mahārāja,
Hare Kṛṣṇa, Gurudeva.
I have heard from Vaiṣṇavas that if either the guru or the disciple is practicing devotion in the true sense, then both become eligible to enter Goloka. I confess today that I am the most fallen of your disciples and that I am unable to practice bhakti in its true sense. I break many promises that I made to you on the day of my dīkṣā. I am not eligible in any form to serve you or Kṛṣṇa.
I just practice bhakti superficially—to take shelter under the name of Kṛṣṇa, and under that sacred umbrella I still commit all kinds of aparādhas. Please save me and forgive me, Guru Mahārāja.
Though I know I am not at all qualified to perform Kṛṣṇa-sevā or to enter Goloka, I still pray for your mercy and beg you to save me from this material world. I am a soul full of lust and anger. Please forgive me. I do not know by what act your Kṛṣṇa became pleased and sent you into my life, but I am unable to properly take advantage of that divine opportunity. I commit all kinds of aparādhas at your lotus feet. Please forgive me, O Guru Mahārāja.
I have one desire: that when I leave this body, I may see you with Prabhupāda, Kṛṣṇa, and Rādhārāṇī. Though I know I am unqualified, I also trust in your mercy.
I am unable to serve you or Śrīla Prabhupāda properly. Please bless me, Gurudeva, and forgive me.
The most fallen and aparādhī soul,
Ādinātha Murāri Dāsa