Dear Guru Maharaja,
Please accept my respectful obeisances.
I am not good at writing Vyasa offerings, still I am doing a small attempt.
Guru Maharaj I don't think that anybody would have accepted me as a disciple. Actually, I have realized that nobody in this
universe is worse than me. But inspite of knowing all this, you initiated me into the Holy Name. The Holy Name is the most
valuable asset one can posses. You gave it so easily, such a valuable thing very diffuclt to get after many many births.
On the order of Lord Chaitanya Mahaprabhu you have appeared during Srila Prabhupada's time to deliver me - the ugly soul.
Guru Maharaja your initiated disciples are more than 50,000. Inspite of health issues you have conducted classes and are
telling us about the past times of Lord Chaitanya and are inspiring thousands of people world wide to take to KC.
By hearing Lord Gauranga's past times, we feel closeness to Lord Chaitanya as these past times are also not different from Him.
Sometimes I am stunned that despite poor health you are taking lectures. You are carrying out the orders of your spiritual master so sincererly.
Your good self is developing Mayapur so nicely. The TOVP looks promising and it will be the answer to all atheists who are prortaying
wrong picture of this universe and are making people Godless. The world will see the universe correctly presented based on Srimad Bhagavatam. With Bhaktivedanta Institue also which explains Krishna in a scientific manner, I think golden age in Kaliyuga has already arrived thanks to your tireless preaching for so many years. You have created so many devotees. We are very fortunate to have your senior disciples
His Grace Vijaya Venugopal Das and Her Grace Prema Padmini Devi Dasi as our guide in spiritual life. Under them, both me
and my wife are conducting Bhakti Vrikshas.
You have brought to light such a wonderful preaching method called "Bhakti Vriksha" in which not only we conditioned souls get
an opportunity to glorify the Supreme Lord, but also an opportunity to get close to the BV members.
Guru Maharaj, you are not judgemental about me but you want to help me progress everyday.
I am born in a yavana family. That too the caste is called "Daivadnya Brahmins" meaning "Transcendental Brahmins".
When questioned by others how is it that we can eat meat we are told that we are transcendental brahmanas and that is why can eat meat.
No activity of Brahmanas viz. pathan, paathan, yajan, yaajan, daana, pratigraha was done.
Now, by your mercy I could realize how we are not brahmins but hypocrites calling ourselves as 'brahmanas'.
By mercy of your sincere disciples I have been promoted to sudra platform from yavana platform.
This elevation is possible only because of you, Guru Maharaja.
I am suffocating these days because of not being able to go out for book distribution.
It is the best way of getting people for Bhakti Vriksha.
I feel as if I am dead without book distribution. This service is most dear to Srila Prabhupada.
MY BV members have reduced in number as most of them got transferred.
Maharaj, now I can only depend upon you so that I can get permanent, serious and sincere members for BV.
Greatness of a Vaishnava is measured by how many devotees he can create. You have created more than 50,000 disciples all over the world.
I have so far not brought any aspirant for initiation before you. This shows that I am not even a devotee.
I have been trying hard to work on anarthas that I have in my heart. Because of these anarthas I am not able to progress
at my full potential. Now because of the pandemic, the anarthas are even more difficult to overcome. Particularly "Lust" anartha.
I am anxious that because of this lust I may have to take birth again and because of me you too have to come again
to deliver me. I did the same things of eating, sleeping, defending and mating in so many previous bodies still this desire
for sense enjoyment does not go away and when that impulse comes, I get mad after it. Pre COVID 19, regular book distribution kept my lust under control but now almost impossible to control because of COVID19 .
I am fed up as I cannot do anything and as I am writing this, I cannot even cry as my heart is made of stone.
I am helpless, dear Gurudev.
By your mercy and devotees association only I am in Krishna Consciousness.
Your most unworthy, useless and sinful disciple,
Amarapati Jagannath Das