Hare Krishna Dear Guru Maharaj,
Please accept my respectful obeisances unto your lotus feet
All glories to Srila Prabhupada
I do not have any worthy qualification to understand your glories or to glorify you; but by the mercy and encouragement of senior Vaishnavas I am attempting to make this humble offering. I have heard many times from many senior devotees about your mercy, but in the past 1yr I have been experiencing it.
If it wasn't for your kind and causeless blessings that I received when you came to Bangalore in 2019, I would have been rotting here, out of my false ego, envy, anger, lust and my sinful activities; and thus causing suffering to everyone around me. Externally dressed up as a devotee, I would have been cheating myself, without knowing the essence of devotional service, and leading a hippocratic life. Now with your mercy I understand what it means by, " A devotee spends gallons of blood to bring a single soul out of the clutches of Maya"; and you are a living example for that. You have been travelling physically and virtually, tolerating all the pains and difficulties to save insignificant and sinful souls like me.
Seeing the miseries of this material world, My desire was to get out of this by chanting the holy names so the Lord which is the easiest way of purification. Though I knew that was not the goal, yet my mind was attached to it. But as I regularly heard the classes by HG Premapadmini mathaji, it was being more clear and slowly I was able to convince myself that libertion is not the goal, but it is Service and Krishna Prema. This was further ingrained in my dull head by your wonderful statement which I recently read; where a devotee told you that: in a foreign country during a festival, the emperor is blessed to live for 10,000yrs; and you immediately replied, if you were allowed to live for that long, you would push the sankirtan movement of Lord Chaitanya. This made me realise how much you are ready to tolerate for the service of the Lord.
I am amazed by your dedication and love towards Srila Prabhupada and how much you want to serve him and I pray to the Lord that I receive a drop of that sincere love towards your lotus feet.
Your divine love in fact flows through your dear disciples and this fallen soul has received the good fortune to be a vessel to receive their valuable association. (Though the vessel is full of holes; their mercy and love mends these holes.)
Hearing to your Chaitanya lila class where you mentioned the glories of Sri Chaitanya Mahaprabhu's sankirtan in Jagannath Puri with the devotees gave me so much joy and it was a great encouragement to do sankirtan and preaching more and more and please Srila Prabhupada and penetrate the whole world with good fortune. Beloging to Srila Prabhupada's family, there is huge responsiblity for us to preach Lord Chitanya's Sankirtan movement, which is the only solace for the conditioned souls like me burning in the fire of Kali Yuga.
Though I have this little desire to serve the Vaishnavas and preach; it is only possible with your mercy.
mukam karoti vachalam
pangum langhayate girim
yat-kripa tam aham vande
sri-gurum dina-taranam
I pray and beg at your lotus feet to please give this dumb and lame soul, enough strength amidst all material miseries and challenges, and nourish this small desire of mine to preach the glories of Sri Sri Nitai Gaursundar and spread their causeless mercy and serve as many souls as possible to surrender to the most merciful incarnation - Sri Gauranga Mahaprabhu.
Guru Maharj, If you so desire, I have a humble request, to please accept this orphan soul as your spiritual daughter.
Few of the sevas given to me by senior vaishnavas:
1) Children's class in Koramangala Bhakti Center (13 children) -
Astha, Vyom, Vedarth & Raghava, Vedika & Jishnu, Radhika, Krishna, Sresth, Nandana, Debanshi, Aishani & Swara.
Guru Maharaj, last year on your Vyasa Puja day, we started a new session for the children every Ekadashi (Ekadashi Kids meet-up) where children get together online and chant 1 round and hear the glories and story of each Ekadashi. Today (8th April 2021) we completed 1 year. We also got the good fortune to hear the glories of the two rare Ekadashis in Purushottama month. Children also did aarati and offered ghee lamp every day during Damodar month and they had various challenges to perform each day during Purushottama month (Make a garland, prepare bhoga, perform tulasi puja, learn a sloka, etc.)
2) Bhakti Vriksha in English (3 devotees)
Nupur Matha - (chanting 16 rounds)
Anjali matha (chanting 16 rounds)
Rasmita matha (chanting 4 rounds)
3) Bhakti Vriksh in Malayalam (5 devotees)
Shivanarayan prabhu (chanting 1 round)
Chitra matha (chanting 1 round)
Rajendra prabhu (chanting 16 rounds)
Arjun prabhu (chanting 1 round)
Vinodhini matha (chanting 16 rounds)
4) Childrens class in Kochi (9 children)
Pavitra , Parvathy & Gowri, Maya, Sparshika, Krissa, Ojaswi, Devipriya, Aaditya, Vedika & Varsha, Aparna, Meenkshi, Sreedevi & Haripriya
Guru Maharaj, Please shower your mercy and blessings on all these pious souls so that they progress very fast in their devotional service to Sri Sri Gaura Nitai.
Your Servant
Vidya Iyer
