Subject: Abhay Krishnacharan Das; Sri Sri Rukmini Krishna Mandir, ISKCON Guwahati
Dearest Guru Maharaj,
Hare Krishna
Please Accept My Humble Obeisances
All Glories to Srila Prabhupada
First of all wishing you an all Auspicious and Happy Appearance Day
I wanted to write many times to you through mail but failed, thinking if you would read my mail, but once when I wrote I sent in a mail which later on I came to know was not active. Since than I lost confidence to write to you again feeing myself wretched, although I am your initiated disciple since Gaur Purnima 2018. But I want to take full advantage of your upcoming vyaspuja and try to write my offering to you in these platform.
This year I have completed my bachelors in fine arts which I did staying in temple premises.
Dear Guru Maharaj after much endeavour I failed to keep myself free from lust, anger, greed and duplicity. But when I saw and tried to know you I have realized what selflessness is, what love is. I know you love your disciples and followers of Srila Prabhupada to the greatest extent. And now I have a goal in life to be attached to your lotus feet. I pursue from heart to place myself in service of your lotus feet. And just by wishing these I feel alive and purposeful.
Isn’t this the reason why pure devotees of Krishna stay in these visible mundane world. Isn’t this the reason why pure devotees of Krishna favours the wretched conditioned soul like myself by staying in these mundane world. What hope is there for me other than you to get liberated from wretched conditioned life. What else can I say I just hope that stone like heart of mine may get dissolved by your merciful shower of glance.
This is true that that you want your desciples to be sincere devotees practicing Krishna Consciousness with full heart. Like a small fish dying in the shore, when lifted by someone who would put it back in water , it tends to jump out. Nevertheless it just needs to stay calm and have faith in the hands that he will deliver it in the depths of ocean. Dear Gurumaharaj please bless me may I never jump out of your glance and die out in vain. I am intending to take the vow of lifelong Brahmacharya and give my heart in your eternal service.
Now since I am free from academic engagements, I am giving more time in morning sadhna regularly. I was indeed infected by corona and was suffering since last month and was in hospital for 7 days. But else I am helping His Holiness Purushottam Swami Maharaj in Tribal care Initiative by going in tribal areas. I am now regularly visiting kumarikata in assam baksa district near Bhutan border. People here are accepting Krishna Consciousness favourably and also accepting Srila Prabhupada’s books. We are also able to meet a leader of Brahma Samaj who proposed to give us farm land. I am looking forward to have it and develop it as a farm to train up tribals in Krishna consciousness in near future with your blessings.
I am also helping in preaching among the youths here in Guwahati and by your blessings students are reading Srila Prabhupadas books regularly. We are conducting online study sessions three days a week to read Bhagavat Gita and decided to start reading Srimad Bhagavatam every Saturday. All these were started online during the lockdown last year. Many of the youths now looks forward to be initiated by your divine grace.
I would like to conclude this offering by praying, dear Gurumaharaj may I simply engage in glorifying and find perfection in chanting the Holy Names of Lord Krishna.
Your eternal Spiritual Son
Abhay Krishnacharan Das
First Initiation, Gaur Purnima 2018
