Hare Kṛṣṇa
Dear Guru Mahārāja
Please accept my respectful obesiances.
All glories to Śrīla Prabhupāda!
I sit here in Śrīdhāma Māyāpur, almost a month after the initiation ceremony. The past six months have been mentally challenging for me, but it is gradually bearing fruits. I understand more and more that it is only useful looking at things on the basis of the spiritual ego, according to Kṛṣṇa’s consciousness. This is your mercy, dear Guru Mahārāja, because you want to liberate me and pull me to Gaura-Kṛṣṇa.
Personal associations with you are always very inspiring. Through these I become more and more aware that I am part of you at the lotus feet of Gaura-Nitāi. I am very happy about this and would like to develop myself further.
After the last difficult but nectarean years, coming to your lotus feet here in Māyāpur dhāma, you shower me with the love of Gaura-Nitāi through association with you, the deities, parikramas and holy places. These things are given to me by your lotus hand: both the unpleasant and the nectar of Māyāpur. I want to learn to accept these things from you as a full mercy.
By building Māyāpur, you adopt the devotees here and want us all to find our eternal home here.
By inspiring your disciples to distribute books, you want to give eternal benefit to people, thus serving Śrīla Prabhupāda. I try to keep this in my heart, how important this is to you.
Although I already want to stay here in Śrīdhāma Māyāpur forever, but if my destiny calls me away from here, I want to keep these treasures in my heart and learn to serve you.
Thank you very much for your causeless mercy.
Your spiritual son
Caitanya Jagajjīvana Dāsa
Hungary